First off, I had two best friends... Joeline is a best friend I had known since I was 2.. I met her in preschool... Been friends and now both of us are 19, she soon will be 20... 17/18 years of friendship has lost somewhere. I always has been there for her. After she found her "Mr. Right" she left me, she will not talk to me, she will not hang out with me anymore, she will not be there for me when I needed her. When she`s available for the day she end up said "Well I`m planning to call Drew (her boyfriend) and hang out with him." She does that every time I found out she have a day off... So I basically has lost her. She will not speak with me anymore, she just disappeared from me.... I`ve lost my first best friend...
Here come the best part... Second best friend... Erin. I met her in 7th grade which when I was 11.. Been best friend ever since. God, I had enough with her, I lost her on my own... Here the reasons; She will not take my advices to help her go through her depression, she will not listen to me about what she needs to do to stop herself from getting hurt by boys every time, she will not chill with boys when I tells her to because I hates her getting hurt instantly -snap finger- just like that. She will not listen. So last night. On October 14th, 2006 (Yes on a first year of my another best friend's death), her roommate, Amy hooked her up with this guy, Joe from military who came home from Iraq last night, they all got drunk and stuff... And when Erin starting to fall asleep, Amy tried to convice her to go bed because she was tired... She refused and decided to sleep on Joe, she suddenly starting to making out, touching him after first couple hours they met... After listening to Amy complaining that Erin wasn`t following her rules. So I suddenly instant messaged her on her phone, Sidekick.... Said "You ******** whore, wake up and stop messing around, listen to amy when she tried to help you and s**t." And she yelled at me, which is fine with me... She`s a ******** whore, and I aint gonna listen to her anymore. I aint gonna help her with her issues with boys anymore because I`ve been helping her on that and been ******** waste 2 hours to 5 hours of telling her what she should really do to help herself to straighten her ******** life out to stop herself from being so depressed. I told her that I`m done with her because I aint gonna help her anymore and s**t. I`m done.
Friendships with me and others has fallen apart so far which I had no hard feeling because I can live without them since they can`t do any good for me, they`re ******** up. Most of them are. I might do need friends but most of them...? No. I`m good with what I have right now.
Anyways, I might won`t be typing another journal any time sooner so I wanna to say Happy Halloween.
Here come the best part... Second best friend... Erin. I met her in 7th grade which when I was 11.. Been best friend ever since. God, I had enough with her, I lost her on my own... Here the reasons; She will not take my advices to help her go through her depression, she will not listen to me about what she needs to do to stop herself from getting hurt by boys every time, she will not chill with boys when I tells her to because I hates her getting hurt instantly -snap finger- just like that. She will not listen. So last night. On October 14th, 2006 (Yes on a first year of my another best friend's death), her roommate, Amy hooked her up with this guy, Joe from military who came home from Iraq last night, they all got drunk and stuff... And when Erin starting to fall asleep, Amy tried to convice her to go bed because she was tired... She refused and decided to sleep on Joe, she suddenly starting to making out, touching him after first couple hours they met... After listening to Amy complaining that Erin wasn`t following her rules. So I suddenly instant messaged her on her phone, Sidekick.... Said "You ******** whore, wake up and stop messing around, listen to amy when she tried to help you and s**t." And she yelled at me, which is fine with me... She`s a ******** whore, and I aint gonna listen to her anymore. I aint gonna help her with her issues with boys anymore because I`ve been helping her on that and been ******** waste 2 hours to 5 hours of telling her what she should really do to help herself to straighten her ******** life out to stop herself from being so depressed. I told her that I`m done with her because I aint gonna help her anymore and s**t. I`m done.
Friendships with me and others has fallen apart so far which I had no hard feeling because I can live without them since they can`t do any good for me, they`re ******** up. Most of them are. I might do need friends but most of them...? No. I`m good with what I have right now.
Anyways, I might won`t be typing another journal any time sooner so I wanna to say Happy Halloween.
