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What is this? Am I nothing? Yeah, nothing to him.....Am I really that stupid? I thought........I knew we would fight but I never thought he would leave.....I guess it was an illusion of the heart....But I still have feelings for him...Something is wrong with me....He will know what is best for him...If I'm not...So be it....It just hurts alot....I didn't think letting him go would be so hard on me...I thought..I thought maybe, just maybe I would feel this feeling of relief that I did the right thing..But he doesn't love me...I don't need to think he does...He.......I can't write much more...I am not going to cry...I can't....If I cried right now....I will try to go back with him....I will cry my eyes out and.....and he.....He would just brush it off like a hair on a dress shrit....I will never online date again....I will just wait for someone I can see...I guess I'll take mom's advice and wait until I get to college...I am still not over him yet....
Yeah! things have changed! He is no longer mad! whee Hehe! It's allllll good! mrgreen HEHE! I LOVE IT! heart
I don't want to cfeel this lonliness, not anymore..
I wish that you would come busting in through my ever closing door
I want to see you, be here with you, be your everything..and be right by your side..
I want to be there when you stub your toe, bite your tongue, graduate, when you're hungry, sleepy; I want to be with you always...Every moment...I want to cherish every moment...With you...My dear..My heart..When rain falls, I want to see the expression on your face..When it is sunny out I want to..I want to feel the sun's warmth with you...When it snows, I want to throw snowballs at you and run...I want so many things...But most of all you..my one and only...My biggest wish come true..