Well, New Year's is right around the corner. You know what that means, people. It means we all sit around the TV watching that crystal ball drop in Times Square so's we can ring in the year 2005.
For some reason or another though, I think that for me, it'll be a difficult New Year's. I just don't know why, though. I guess I'm having one of those days where I just wish that for one moment that the world would just go away for a few blessed moments so I can think, maybe even catch up with myself and figure out what am I supposed to do.
Maybe the other reason I feel this way is because I don't see Ma and Dave lasting for too much longer as well, all because of me.
Tcch...
I wish I could explain why I said such a thing, but to be honest, I don't want to get into it. It's bad enough you all got problems of your own.
But what should I do? Should I just hang myself and get it over with or just contine to run away from my problems, only to let them get bigger and bigger?
Hmmph... I'm willing to bet that even you don't even have an answer to that.
Now, keep in mind this is not sympathy I'm looking for. I'm just asking a question, maybe even seeking an opinion.
What should I do? Let myself continue to be the source of Dave's and my mother's problems until I finally do something to myself that I might regret? Or should I get away from them as quick as I can?
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Suicide is never a really good answer, in my opinion. I think you should just give yourself some space from your mom and Dave. Your situation right now obviously isn't a very serene one. Giving yourself some space from them might help. You don't necessarily have to move out, persay, but I usually just keep to myself now. And it's better than the other tangible alternatives.