It sure has been a while since I've posted on my journal but it's not like it matters because nobody reads it! (It's for the best.) I've been busy with work and life in general. There were a few fights between my older sister and I.
Now my younger brother and I are gonna set sail for a different view of things. AKA the big move. It's gonna be difficult and it's gonna be our first time being independent and being on our own. We are waiting to get paid a certain amount of money for an application fee for a place we want.
Wednesday is a LOOONG time away and it's frustrating the ******** out of me because I want to know if I'd qualify. I'm just paranoid. This Saturday we will visit our parents' grave and pray. We are going to ask for their blessings for ourselves and my sister, older brother, kitties, etc. Most of all, we're gonna pray to God that everything goes well. Ever since our mother's passing, things have been... harsh.
I went through a lot when she was in this world with us so it wouldn't surprise me if she's worried up in heaven with our father, lol. She's always worried more about others than herself.
Anyways, the car also messed up again but my older brother is gonna help us fix it before the //Big Move//. He's gonna try his best.
I just want things to go well. I feel mentally exhausted because of these new pills I'm taking and I finally got to see a psychiatrist as well after many years. He's told me that he knows I don't have schizophrenia but what he does know is that I have PTSD from the abuse I experienced as a child. (Verbal and physical.) But we will not talk about that right now. That's for another time when I'm not as drugged up, I suppose.
Anywho, I'm gonna end the entry at this. Ya'll take care.
 Ashtonaire · Fri Dec 15, 2023 @ 05:34am · 0 Comments |
