This is not where I want to be. I told myself. How the ******** do I solve this? I shouted inside my head. At 30, this wasn't how I pictured my life. A mother, yes. But the rest of this s**t? ******** no. 2020, I'm positive, will be recorded as one of the worst years globally for everyone. Not only was the world crumbling with protests, riots, and global illness. My mental health started to self-destruct.
Granted, it was never perfect to begin with. When I found myself unraveling. I was able to put myself back together. Expect this time was different. Everything was bringing me to my breaking point. My personal life, My work life, I couldn't handle anything. I wanted everything to go black. Silence. I wanted everything to become nothing.
An ongoing struggle I've had with myself since I was a teenager. Yeah, I know this seems like it's adding up to be a depressing tale, doesn't it? No worries! Because that's not the road we are heading down. To be honest, I'm not sure what path I'm about to travel down. My goal in the end? To find a bit of happiness and hold onto it.
Granted, it was never perfect to begin with. When I found myself unraveling. I was able to put myself back together. Expect this time was different. Everything was bringing me to my breaking point. My personal life, My work life, I couldn't handle anything. I wanted everything to go black. Silence. I wanted everything to become nothing.
An ongoing struggle I've had with myself since I was a teenager. Yeah, I know this seems like it's adding up to be a depressing tale, doesn't it? No worries! Because that's not the road we are heading down. To be honest, I'm not sure what path I'm about to travel down. My goal in the end? To find a bit of happiness and hold onto it.
