Boy it's been a long time, hasn't it?
I wonder if you all thought I was dead.
I did.
I've been feeling dead for quite some time now. Like nothing fun or new is coming anytime soon. This feeling has permeated every aspect of my life, I'm more sluggish, weak, stupid, useless, and completely less content.
I want life to throw me a challenge every once in a while, keep me on my toes. It's one of the reasons I stay here, hoping that someone will corner me and give me a good talking to.
"Knives what happened to you?!" *Smack* "You used to be feared, respected, terrible and powerful! Why are you rotting behind the scenes?!"
I could have used someone telling me that. But don't now, I won't believe you. I want to be a writer, and I know I've got the ability, but I haven't the drive. What am I going to do in the world when they kick my a** out of college? I've been steeped in family dogshit recently, so I haven't been on to amuse you all with my happy rants about everything, but I plan to come back. Do me one favor, I promise it'll make all of your lives much more interesting.
Remeber me. Because when I come back, I don't want to start from scratch. Those of you from the old days: Don't forget what I was, because I'll be back there soon. Those of you who only know a fast talking jackass of a roleplayer that gets the begrudging respect of those who used to fear him: Wait for me. I'll show you.
Because I'll be back.
emo And what the ********?! Are they really encouraging this s**t?!
 The Vansin · Fri Jun 23, 2006 @ 12:24am · 4 Comments |
