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How do u know I'm hurting if you can not see my pain ? To wear it on my body tells words I cant explain!! I focus on the Pain ... the only thing that's real. Cutting myself open lets me know that I can feel. Some times I cut myself just to see that I still bleed. People say that cutting is something I don't need. But people handle different things in very different ways .... And cutting helps me cope with my pain throughout the days. Every one is fooled by my happy mask. They only assume and don't take the time to ask. So if you are wondering what is wrong with me.. I'm trapped inside this painful world wanting to be FREE !!!!
Here I am once again just laying on my bed. Thinking about many things, thoughts run through my head. Asking myself why this world is filled with so much pain. Many other thoughts I'm thinking I cannot explain. Wondering how one person can be feeling so much hurt. And wondering why some people make others feel like dirt. My questions still un-answered. No one tells me why. Now I know how people feel when they say they want to DIE. I'm seeing red, on my arms and in my head. The pain just never seems to cease. Why cant I just go and die, so I can be at peace? The Pain inside you never goes, it stays in that one place. In side your head, inside your mind, Holds you in its embrace. But there will come a time, and it might not be today. But when that time comes, your troubles just float away.