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I deleted my other posts because I couldn't bare to have them anymore. I need to stop looking back at the past and judging the things I did or didn't do. I'm out of high school and now entering the real world in a few short weeks. I can't keep living in the past like I want too. It's just not an option I have anymore. I have to cut ties with it and with certain people. I don't want to but I can't carry that kind of baggage with me when I leave. I'm not sure if I'll come back once I go off to college. Maybe it will be way to hard for me to see everyone again. I don't cut myself away from the people I love but what if it's whats best for my survival? I know I'm rambling but these are all the things I have to think about while I'm still here...still living in the past while I can. I know the people that I have submitted to memory from here can't come with me when I leave. But for one short moment I wish they could.