My mood is changing and I am shifting again. During the seasons and every year I change in sometimes drastic ways. It is not something I do purposely; usually what factors the change and shift depends on what happen and what life lessons I learned in the prior year. The change and shift usually occurs around this time spring/summer. I've been feeling dark, moody, depressed, and wanting to stay away from people more than usual. I can't even write anymore, my poems are terrible I've been reduced to blogging my feelings on Gaia. I'm not terribly concerned I'm more of concentrated on falling, falling, falling. Every single night, it's just me and all my thoughts and they don't whirl around like they use to. My imagination is tainted with a horrible infection and may never recover, my love is rusting quietly and the rust flakes that fall fall into my soul blackening, the blackening of my soul drifts into my mind and my thoughts ... Soon I will be something new. Sometimes these transformations are very painful, this one may not be since it is semi-similar. Though I only woke up an hour ago, I am getting back in bed.
Wicked Alyce · Fri Mar 22, 2013 @ 11:35pm · 0 Comments |