I hate myself passionately. I'm not like other people and I never will be, I've known this for years. I've never found someone my age to accept me for me because I am so problematic. A therapist once honestly asked me if I ever considered the thought that I might be psychotic, I think of it constantly. I also think of taking mental medication I am meant to be on though I am aware how it alters and changes other people, I've seen it too many times. I am in a constant state of depression, though there is one person who has ever made me forget about it completely. I lost that person because I would constantly break up with them, I tore them to pieces, I will never forgive myself. I've only completely and fully loved only two people, I will never ever love again. I've only said that once before and stood by it for years until I decided to trust again. I know I am always the problem in the relationship.
Wicked Alyce · Wed Feb 20, 2013 @ 12:29pm · 0 Comments |