I do try hard to be indifferent towards thing that really irk me but there are two factors that my family fail to really see. Firstly, I am a drama queen and secondly, I firmly believe and cherish in things being done correctly. It really hurts that my family can't even notice who & what I am and respect it. Most often I take on tasks all alone because they rather not help me. They say all I do is b***h and complain so I just do it myself; I end up doing a lot of things by myself all the way down to preparing the holidays to simple things like cooking dinner. My drama queen ego is never fed; this most likely arose from the fact that I am a first child and a theatre rat. When I was young I always stood to myself because my family had very little respect for who I was as an individual but as you get older it isn't as easy to keep concluded from your family because you have certain obligations. I just end up getting hurt a lot, I try really hard to keep my mouth shut, be indifferent, but it's not as easy. I have tried to teach my family how to do things correctly but they aren't interested in learning and just walk away from me. Things have a tendency to fall to shambles when I'm not around because I am the only order freak. I had a window to leave from all this but my significant other didn't think it as being as brilliant as I so it sort of faded. Still I constantly think of leaving, even despite my significant other, how this is all too much for me but I need that one person more then they even realize.
 Wicked Alyce · Tue Dec 18, 2012 @ 12:36am · 0 Comments |
