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12/14/12

Welcome back to BrightEyes blog! Today, I've learned like many others a great tragedy has happened. The shooting of the Connecticut elementary school where from what I heard, a man of 20 shot his mother, a kindergarten teacher, along with 7 other teachers and 18 other students. Many innocent people lost their lives today and my prayers go out to them.

I myself as in my testimony, the girl I mentioned who referred to herself as a "devil worshipper", was the one in 4th grade who told everyone she was going to bring a gun to school and shoot people. Well, at first no one believed her, but the following morning she left a gun in the school parking lot. Our whole school was on lockdown that entire day. The entire day she was in the principal's office, I mean, this even ended up in the papers. And, she got the principal and vice principal fired. From this experience, I'm thankful to be alive, even if nothing bad happened from it. I truly am. This experience has brought me closer and so I'm able to feel on a similar level what those who survived the shooting felt, but only the tip of the iceberg.

I feel for those kids who are traumatized, for those families with it being so close to Christmas, having to deal with heartache and losses of their children and parents, and friends and family. I can't begin to imagine how they must feel. I can only pray God watches over these families as well as everyone who was welcomed into His kingdom.

This makes me wonder why there are people out there who would really do this? And to hurt the innocent no less in the process? I realize there are people out there who can't help it, but for those who can, I only pray they get help and find peace within themselves. May God be with us all.

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On a brighter side, today has been a pretty good day. We finally got up the christmas tree and lights on it.

But, this year I'm blessed. This year, it's different. You see, besides finally being on the right path to God, I actually get to experience christmas differently. Each year I'd open lots of presents, we'd go to the family christmas party, and that's about it. But, this year, my mom has to work christmas eve and christmas day, so we aren't opening gifts until the day after christmas. And, there won't be many christmas presents this year either. It's weird, but I'm kinda thankful things are working out this way.

Why? Well, I get to truly experience togetherness without material possessions on christmas, spend it with family and friends, and celebrate the birth of Jesus. I'm actually thankful I can celebrate christmas more religiously this year. I think it's what I need.

With that being said, I'll let you know how Christmas works out for me. Also, tomorrow I have a chance to go downtown on the market like our family did many years ago, every year around this time of year. I have to see how I feel as far as my stomach goes, but I'm hoping I can go. It would only add to making my Christmas more wonderful.

God Bless!