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Wow, I read some of my past entries.....and again....wow -__-;. I almost wanted to delete them. But I won't. In a way, they are like old photographs. Small snapshots of my life.....

My hair has grown longer. I have slowly aged.....but I suppose everyone does. In a way, growing up is terrifying. It's more than just having more responsibilities and learning to make your own decisions.....I now fret for mankind. Then again, I guess man has always been so horrible. Kids make mistakes. I know I have.

But now I know, with it fully defined, what is right and what is wrong. Others do too. What makes life terrible, and almost unbearable, is how so many people truly know the differences by now, but they make the CONSCIOUS DECISION to do what is wrong.

With knowledge, I now have power. But with that power, I also start to feel the coldness and cynical attitudes of the people around me. I never knew how many distorted and demented minds existed.

The warmth and love I felt as a child is now absent. Or was all love all a lie? No. I felt love and it did not feel dry. I can't help but truly believe it was reciprocated

I want to get away. Run away. And give myself a brand new face