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I remember I always told you that one day I would fall for you, rather hard. I think you thought I was kidding. I FINALLY blushed while we were talking. Honestly, it was bound to happen. Your mom "Ooo"ed at us talking? BLUSH. Surprisingly, I think I'll get over it soon enough.

It doesn't REALLY doesn't help that I mentally used you to help me stop fantasizing about someone else. Not that I was all "Oh Ty-I mean YOU" but more, "Oh Ty- Oh, YOU... well this is awkward." Now when the thoughts creep, it's YOU who appears. It makes things awkward (for me, of course. Hay-seus forbid you actually peruse my journal, but then again, I'll keep it public just to feel heard, so it's not IMPOSSIBLE). And they are only getting worse. D: Now my daydreams are going from randomly hot to INTIMATE. BLECH!

But then again, it would be a delightful rebound because nothing can ever happen. But then again, I'm tired of crushing. I'll never date at this rate.

Edited:
I highly doubt that what I want is a bunch of sexual tension right now. I have me and my hand - very adequate. I want to lay my head down on my pillow and exhale and think that life has finally swung in my favor. right now, the pendulum's been knocked off course and I'm not getting ******** by drama every week like I was last year. *shivers* Awful year. I feel INFINITELY much better, but I want my life to be as good as I feel.