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Another one
Ok, i know i just did a journal entry, but this is on the boyfriend and life subject, not on how i am completely dependent on my best friend. Here goes. There is one guy i like, but there is no chance in hell that i would date him anyways. I was talking with Kaite about this, she asked me if i liked him and i said yes, then she told me he liked me too, i told her i already knew that, then she asked me if i was gunna date him... without hesitation i said flat out no. Why? I have no self esteem, no life, and almost no friends. There is no way in hell that i want a boyfriend. ever. I plan to live my life alone with my cat and my books. Reading until I'm 30 then committing suicide, most likely with drugs or a knife. Maybe I'll hang myself... i don't know, but I'm not going to live to be 81 with grand-kids or a family that cares about which mental institution I'm in. Oh, maybe I'll drown myself, i heard that's a good way to die, meh, I'll think about it when it comes up. Anyways, i have no future to be proud of and I'm not going to collage. No way am i ever willingly going to go back to school after i get out of it.... Wow this is a very depressing subject... well... i think I'm done.
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