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pink bubbles? hmm. Since fairly recently I am cynical and unruly (can't remember the exact word that works better for this). Not good, but its hard to not get dissapointed with people. It is of coarse possible to start with yourself and change the world, but not too many people understand what I say. Oh well, it depends on the mood. One can stop forcing their own standards and beliefs onto other people, it is possible to forget to think what is good and what is bad and enjoy oneself and the world while there is time, to stop selfimprovement and relax with what you are, to change with the wind, to relax. But I am a dreamer, and it is very hard for me to stop to dream. And since the dreamer is me, so I dream according to my own standards and oppinions, beliefs. And I don't very much like that people lie, to themselves and others, get wealthy to the detrement of others. That there is nothing solid that can serve as a platform on which one can stand firmly, from which one can grow. People lie and so we have the absence of something constant, something real, unchanging. Perhaps but for the self, yet it is often hard to not be cross with the self and it is difficult to resist changing while among others and the different. ... ^^ I love to banally discourse like this.

I'd like to believe that many people can change for the better in my eyes (for I am the one looking), but its hard to forget that so many smoke and drink, do that which is fashinable (want to be important, but in the unimportant things), go insane, stop wanting something infinitely (immortally) beautiful, joy like children when someone cusses on tv, grab onto beliefs that they are better than that or other country, that the color of their skin is the best, the most important, and that it is very important to have the newest cell phone that is already forgetting how to be a cellphone; hard to forget that governments order to shoot at peaceful protesters and that there are wars. And again people crave to be in charge, the best, and not together. The planet is pretty small after all~ Unthinking kids. I don't want to think about people as kids, as of "others", but can't do anything but. (And I am being controversial as always) ^^ I am here, and they are there, some will listen and go away, whether they will understand, I don't know. Can't find myself a place ^^