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Moment Of Pain
My heart twisted with agony, my eyes stung from the tears, my stomach was knotted, my head was pounding, and words were cought in my throat. I had so much to say, but everytime I opened my mouth, there was nothing but silence. He held me close to him as we laid on his bed. The black comforter under us was almost off the bed ans one of his two pillows was soaked from my tears. I wanted to go back twenty minutes, when we were happy, before I sunk my face into his pillow. He finally got my face into his chest. His white shirt smelled like Axe and was soaked from where the tears fell. I clung to him, not wanting to let go. After a while (I'm not sure how much time has passed), though not audible, I was able to get out, "Alec, I love you." He just held me. Finally, he whispered, "I love you too." My heart skipped a beat and my stomach fluttered. His voice seemed to make everything go away for a brief moment. He took my chin and lifted my face. His blonde hair was just barely covering his green eyes. "You're so beautiful, even with your rred nose and puffy eyes." I barely smiled and he kissed my forehead. "You're the only girl I'm ever gonna marry." Are we really gonna get married? Or is her just saying that? I thought. Then he kissed my lips. I moved my arms around his neck. We were in that moment I had wished for that seemed so long ago. His arms were on my black shirt around my waist, pulling me into him. My heartbeat exellerated, the butterflies went crazy. Then he pulled away. I rememebered where I was and what was happening. "I can't do this! I can't let you go!" The past seven months was just a dream, some sick trick God was playing on me because he was bored. But I wasn't ready to wake up. I wanted to go back to sleep and continue dreaming. I began to realize there's no such thing as a happy ending. I hated every love song, every romance movie and romance book. I resented those Disney movies where the princess always got her prince abd the happy ending. I hated them. I hated the girl who was gonna have Alec. We sat up and I held the bear I had given him months ago. I hated him for a brief moment. Why was he doing this? Why was he breaking my heart? I hated him! But I loved him...so much it hurt. I could hear Jezie's voice, "I told you so." I sunk my head into his shoulder again. "I won't!" He held for a long time. Alec tilted my head up again, and my drak hair got into my eyes. He smoothly pushed it out of the way and kissed my nose, something he did because he knew I thought it was cute. "You'll find someone, I know you will." I shook my head. I couldn't speak, thinking I might start crying again. Jakob opened the door. "Paige, Jezie and Stephan are here." He gave me a confused look. I stood up, said good bye and walked out. I could feel Alec behind me. He took my hand and we slowly walked to my dad's truck. Without a word, I got in. I reluctantly let go of his hand. I shut the door as he whispered goodbye. He walked away as my dad started to drive. Fresh tears flowed as I told him and my brother what happened. The pain hit harder. It was official....I had woken up.
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