He's seriously just a dumbass thats the best way to put it. I'm not conceded like at all. I actually think pretty low of myself most of the time. Yet still I think that a guy like him shouldn't act disgusted when a girl like me asks him to take me to prom as a friend! I need a date or I can't go I'm not a student anymore, and thats not my fault either. Really he made me fight him for it, for HOURS. Other than josh I'm his best friend. Josh might as well be his brother so really that means that I'm his best friend and he treats me like s**t. Also apparently because I'm his best friend and I'm a girl his whole family either thinks we have or are going to hook up. I mean...we probably are going to eventually but thats just because I'm never gonna get rid of this kid and when we are older we're gonna be somewhere and we're gonna be unattached and bored and we're gonna do it in a closet or a car or somewhere. He thinks I should just have sex with someone, just to get it over with. Who the ******** other than his gets their virginity over with? I'll take care of that myself for now thanks. He thinks I would be more interesting to talk to if I were no longer a virgin. Not really, I would talk about sex and it's adjacent topics the same, maybe even less. I hope he knows I'm never gonna give him as many details about my sex life as he gives me about his. Ugh and he made Katie a woman over and over and over and under the table and on the stares and again and again. Yet they took a shower together once and they wore bathing suits he said "Just because we've had sex doesn't mean I have to be a pig" WHAT? Oh my god. If it's in anyway inappropriate to shower together naked they should not have had sex. Period. Side note if anyone took advantage of me like that he would kill them, she was young and naive. 15 but still. Actually no he wouldn't kill them, I had to convince him that it wasn't my fault about that thing with that douche bag at the beach. Plus that thing with that other douche bag, he's a really bad friend he blames everything on my "bad decisions" my bad situations nine times out of ten have something to do with someone else's decisions. Like damn man, and he's always saying "well I'm not going to lie thats not how I am and I wont change just because society says speaking your mind all the time is wrong." It's called being tactful you dumbass. He makes me cry all the time he used to make the other five girls in our group cry a lot. God knows he made the Katies cry a lot and that ******** douche told me I couldn't talk to them anymore. Katies stick together and like to call eachother by name cause it makes us giggle. Well, maybe it's just the ones I know. Anyway, maybe he should take a break from making people cry for a minute. If he insults me for being a good person one more time I will kill him. Like really ******** excuse me because I wont allow someone else to get hurt just to save myself a little grief. Back to prom, how can he not want to go with me? We have fun together I didn't ask him to hang out with me all night, or to dance with me. I'm also not as pitiful as he might believe. I really hope that if I'm sitting down and a slow song comes on he doesn't "take pity on me" and ask me to dance, because then I'm an a** if I say no but if I say yes he thinks he's doing me a favor. I'm cool with being an a**, I see his a** so much I sometimes forget it's not his face and think he's walking upside down. I also really don't want him to comment positively on my appearance on prom night, his comments are always rude or vulgar and almost always have some sort of insult in them. I would almost rather he insult me to be honest, because I'm really not in the mood for his bullshit, ever. Want to kill him want to kill him want to kill him. He's always saying that if he really did die I would feel bad for always saying I want to kill him. I disagree, I would be sad that he was gone and I would get a tattoo that said shane you ******** dumbass. He would still rarely leave my mind just like he does now. It's just so annerving how stupid he is. I somehow always start thinking about dumb things he has said. He just makes me so mad! He also has some retarded misconceptions about me that I don't understand how he could still have after two years. He should have jumped at the chance back when I was half throwing myself at him and not quite as insane as I am now, because he would still be getting some. I don't even like him like that really, it's weird but I just have this sneaking suspicion that I could deal with him being stupid way better if we were sleeping together. At least then he would stop going between making comments that insinuate I repulse him and making comments that insinuate he would like to take our argument into my bed instead of outside. I'm pretty sure he would always like to take our arguments into my bed...I kind of would to then all my frustrations would have an outlet. How did this go from being about how I semi hate him to how I want to do him? I have so many issues someone make it stop!
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