My spring break it practically over. Isn't that just nice? I didn't even get to do what I wanted. Like clean out my closet. Make an new stop motion. Work out some. Oh well I guess. I have the summer to do all that. Maybe I won't though. I'm looking to get a summer job. But I doubt that will happen.
I want to do something with myself already. Im tired of being so damn lazy. How is that attractive? I want to be a strong woman who knows were she wants to go in life and knows how to take on a challenge. I want to be beautiful and confident. Gah, the list goes on!
All I am is a small girl with broken dreams. I don't even know what I want anymore. Where am I going to end up? who knows. Hopefully some where good though. I know I will. I wont become a dead beat.
At least Brian has stuff to look forward to. He's getting his license. He's getting a car. He's smart and took all the right classes, not the easy way out. He doesn't have to worry about younger siblings.He always has something to do. He is pushed to do good.
What about me? I dont have any of that. Im just a slacker I guess. I really really want to change that. I just lack that push. That drive.
I want to do something with myself already. Im tired of being so damn lazy. How is that attractive? I want to be a strong woman who knows were she wants to go in life and knows how to take on a challenge. I want to be beautiful and confident. Gah, the list goes on!
All I am is a small girl with broken dreams. I don't even know what I want anymore. Where am I going to end up? who knows. Hopefully some where good though. I know I will. I wont become a dead beat.
At least Brian has stuff to look forward to. He's getting his license. He's getting a car. He's smart and took all the right classes, not the easy way out. He doesn't have to worry about younger siblings.He always has something to do. He is pushed to do good.
What about me? I dont have any of that. Im just a slacker I guess. I really really want to change that. I just lack that push. That drive.
I need to get a life beyond my bedroom.
