(Disclaimer: The German weeks starts on Monday, but the Sunday before that I had a blast too, since my friends came over.)
- Monday: We got 25 Points (high score) on the computer science project, which the professor had said was impossible for anyone to get. YES!! xD
Tuesday: I picked up my Ticket for Saturday, bought new shoes for a ridiculously low price and a beautiful suitcase. YES!! xD (Also, Christian called to tell me he'd come over for breakfast the next morning - which, at the time, didn't excite me quite as much)
Wednesday: My buddy Christian came over at 9:15 am for breakfast. We had delicious pancakes with honey! Then we talked for hours on end, had lunch, and he left at 5:45 pm. o_O The things we talked about were really, really good for both of us though, I was glad he came over in the end - and also because I had cleaned up the place, which came in handy later on.
Thursday: After two hours of sleep (from 2 to 4) I got up, grabbed the last things I needed and headed for the train. On the way I dropped off money I had promised Jesus to give to a friend. Then I rode the train to Berlin and arrived at my parents' house around 11:30 am. My little sis went crazy with excitement when she saw me. She's the cutest thing ever! I played with her for hours and it felt really strange yet so normal to be back at my parents' house. I think I went to bed around midnight of that day, I have no idea how I managed to stay awake for that long.
Friday: We went to see the premiere of a play by a friend of the family. She'd arranged for us to be on the guest list, it was kinda cool. The play itself made me gasp a few times because it was pretty offensive at times, but in the end I really loved it. It showed the nothingness many young people have in their lives, where all they ever do is taking drugs, having sex and alcohol, smoking and doing what every other idiot out there does. The message was, "If you're like everyone else and if you do what every other person's doing, then people won't even notice when you're not around anymore because some other nobody just takes your spot."
Saturday: THE BIG DAY! The decision to go see Dead by Sunrise play was more or less based on the fact that the last couple of weeks had been pretty stressful and that I'd gotten all my finals over with. None of my brothers had wanted to go with me, so I went with only Jesus by my side. He was there, though, and he made this thing into an unforgettable experience for me! =D First, I bought their CD and then I stood in line for about 45 minutes before I got in. I found a spot in the crowd that was pretty close to the part of the stage where Amir Derakh (my current celebrity crush and the guitar player of the band) would stand. I took over 200 picures of him! O__O Then Mr. Hotness started throwing his guitar picks into the crowd and I was like, "Jesuuuus, I waaaant one!!" T__T Of course my arms were way too short to catch them, and most fell into the hands of the people in front of me anyways. So after the concert was over, I took two really awesome up-close pictures of Chester Bennington and got hold of his hand - he had to really pull in order to get it back. It was awesome! Then after Chester left, Jesus told me to go back to the spot where I had been standing and look on the floor. So I did, sort of not knowing what was going on. There was this chick walking away from the stage and she sort of turned as her eyes fell on something white laying on the floor right next to her foot. I saw it in that instand too, but I was still pretty war away. So I jumped, grabbed hold of it even before she could move and then it was mine: AMIR DERAKH'S GUITAR PICK!! o__O Just HOW I got there within the blink of an eye I have no idea. It was almost like I teleported - or rather, WAS teleported. I was soooooooooo excited after that! Still now I can't really believe it! The other girl - not so much. She looked at me like I was some ghost, but didn't say anything. I put the guitar pick into the deepest pocket I could find so I wouldn't lose it, and now it replaces the picture of me and my ex in my wallet - a lot more precious in my eyes, harhar! xD Seriously though, my heart wouldn't stop jumping and I walked as if within a dream after that. It was just THAT hard to believe one of these guitar picks had dropped to the floor and was now mine. I learned an important lesson though. The days before the concert I had kept praying, "Jesus, whatever you want and not what I want shall happen, even if it means I can't go to that concert. I'm putting this into your hands." and the answer I got was, "Well, don't you think it makes me happy to see you happy and enjoy yourself at that concert?" And so he accompanied me and even helped me find that guitar pick. He knew it would be the greatest thing ever for me, and it was. It was simply amazing! I'll cherish this day for a long time, I'm sure. It literally rocked! PIX'R'US
Sunday: Church day. My family went and I went, too. The sermon was about the Israelites in the desert and how they wouldn't stop complaining. The difficulties they were experiencing let them lose belief even though God was RIGHT THERE (in the column of clouds/fire). All these impossible situations they had encountered and beaten with his help were not enough to actually make them trust that he'd be by their side and not let them down. To me, it felt like Jesus was telling me to become stronger through the things we've been through together and not lose faith. But I also felt refreshed because both Christian and that sermon there had told me one thing: my faith in God in all these situations, even though not perfect, pleases him. Whenever stuff happens I trust him to make it right, and he always does. I don't save up money because he'll give me the daily bread I need, plus since I'm giving the tenth part of my income to him, it'll flow back to me a thousand fold, because he said it would. So I don't have to really care for the next day. Of course I'm making plans too, but I'm trying to make it a habit of putting those into his hands as well. He knows the future anyways and if he feels like it, he'll manipulate it, too. He won't let me down because he just loves me this much. It's awesome. My life is good - there is nothing I truly desire (except my celebrity crush Amir, haha - but that's just because he's really great to look at!).
So when I got back last night, the tiny "Hallo Fremder" (Hello Stranger) note was gone from the door of my roomie, who hadn't shown up until now. He had put a note to my door though, saying he'd come back this Saturday. I was SO relieved that I had cleaned up the place like crazy before Christian visited and before I left. MAN! Thank the Lord. Just how does he always manage to make things work out so perfectly and bless me in so many ways when there's only really one thing happening? He's amazing... o_O
So this Saturday marks the beginning of a brand new chapter, I'm afraid. I got almost exactly three months for myself - to cry, to sing, to pray, to get over my ex. And even though this new development should make me incredibly nervous, I actually don't feel bad about it at all. It feels sort of strange, but I'm putting the future into Jesus' hands. He can take care of it. He has taken care of the place not looking like one hot mess, so I'm sure he'll be there. Maybe I can drag the guy to the students' church with me one day? That would be kinda cool! =D
