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Is this my torture For things I've done before Was it so painful to them The ones that would write like this for me I hate me Is there anyone worse Standing here in the rain No one can here a scream that I say No one can prove that they care And what if they do Will it replace what he could I'm selfish for him But he seems to reject me I want to leave And he doesn't want me to go away Openly telling me I don't belong here Yet I'm forced by someone to stay This is still my biggest problem There has to be an end

Posted by: conflicting actor Tue Feb 23, 2010 @ 12:17am

ya ya go away

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mindviperitachi
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Commented on: Mon Mar 29, 2010 @ 12:54am


	i remember feeling like this, i remember having such anger and sadness and pain wrapped up like cotton candy on a stick, i hated the feeling because i saw love and didn't want to accept it and, also wanting to accept it but holding myself from it like a baby attracted to fire. i don't want you to go, i wish i could write you forever and, not have to think about the afterlife, but the more i wish there wasn't one the more i know it's real. i feel your selfishness for him i know you loved him or are trying to love him. but how can you love him when you hate yourself, if you don't have love in youself or for yourself you can't really love another person , i know the feeling. i love him but what are these feelings for myself i don't understand or i don't want to understand at all.

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