I heard from Alexander heart
I missed him so much and will miss him more because...He's going through some tough stuff right now and trying to get it all sorted out so that means I might not be able to talk to him for long...We don't know how long we won't be able to talk so.......yeah.... burning_eyes
Everything feels like it's tumbling and falling apart bit by bit...and I can't stop it and nothing can stop it....I have so many examples but one that I need to voice is that...I've always had the urge to beat someone up or punch something but I somehow pushed it away and ignored it but recently something triggered it and I can't push it back anymore it's like it's shoved in my face like a big sign and...it's building things up. I know that everything I've kept bottled up is now at the rim (like a soda bottled shaken up and when you open it, it explodes) and now it's just waiting for someone to open it up or just the right thing to trigger it and I'll just...lose it or go over board...I don't know what will happen all I know is that I only have so much time until I explode and everything will go from there. It will either go to good or worse. All I know is that for me...everything's not going so well and the worst part is....no one knows that it's going to happen...I've told no one. That's what I meant by keeping things bottled up. I don't mean to I just do and even though I know it's not good for me I just can't stop...I knew I couldn't stop the train I was on and now it seems like it's going to a stop...just not the stop I want. sweatdrop
Okay so yes I sound stupid and am a freak but I've changed in many different ways, good ways as well one's I've noticed but that won't help from the day soon to come that will be known as my exploding brain and emotions. I have a feeling that explosion might turn out bad...I think the urge of hurting someone, punching something will end up coming to play some how and I'm scared, some how excited and not in a good way either. So be warned and just know....Everything will change someday.
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