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Reflections at Midnight
Struggle
Have you ever had to make a decision that tears you into two. Well...I have one to make, and I already know what I'm going to do, the problem is, what is he going to do? And will my decision break his heart? I hope not, I really don't want to leave him..

In approximately two and a half years I will be going away for college. I'm thinking of going to Kentucky - Louisville, for ITT Tech. Now I know what you might be thinking, why not go to the one in Michigan? Well I'm stubborn. It has been my dream, no, my ambition, my goal in life, to move out of this stupid State. To get far away, and see other things, to live somewhere new, and to have a fresh start at life, without the drama of past years.

....the reason I bring this up is because Cody, my dear boyfriend, he wants to stay in Michigan to go to some aviation school called MIAT. I told him quote on quote,

(Me): "I don't want to be stuck in this shitty state, but I'm not going to stop you from going to college, and if that's where you want to go, then that is where you want to go, and I'm not gunna tell you not to go.
But I am telling you, that either way, I'm still leaving."

I think it hurt him a little. I think it hurt me a little too. He said he didn't want to talk about it. Still I press the subject. Why? Why do I do that? Why can't I just leave things for destiny to decide?!

I can't though. I need answers. I need to know...if he's really the person I'm looking for. I need to know, before I set myself up for failure...for...hurt. I just don't know really.

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    _S-117_SuPahMaN
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    Sun Jul 04, 2010 @ 03:06pm


    thats true to move somwhere new but i get that every 4-5 years and it sucks. the army moves my step father to another military compound pirate pirate pirate burning_eyes


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    shans
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    Thu Jul 08, 2010 @ 02:18pm


    I guess that would suck it you were being forced to move. I want to move on my own.

    : )


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