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Title: Hatred

Have I ever loved him? I don't think I've ever did,
But I won't tell him that, god forbid.
Aren't you suppose to care for your father, aren't you suppose to love him?
But what if he beat you until your soul was crushed into the ground?
Would you still love him then?
I don't know what I did,
To make him hate me so,
Do you? I just have to know.

You use to give me nightmares, with you sick twisted smiles,
Over the years those and you really ******** me up,
I'm isolated now from people because of you,
I only have few
People that I can talk to.

I don't understand why my b***h of a mother ever loved you,
I don't get why she never left you.
Maybe it's because she feared you,
Because she knew,
If she ever left you'd beat her into a bloody pulp too.
And she was right,
You would of tracked her down, and drag her back, she wouldn't even be able to put up a fight.

I'm tired of fearing you, this people can see,
I just hope one day you'll go too far and kill me,
I just want to be free
Of you, and just so you can't hurt others I'll drag you down to hell with me.