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I hate living. It comes with deadly emotions such as love. Does God not know he created a weapon of mass destruction? It's the easiest weapon in the world because every one feels it and every can lie.

I love someoe with all of my heart. And for a really long time i even thought that he cared. But he can't even so much as look at me and say hi. And it's the worst feeling in the world. It just makes me feel unworthy of life itself.

Why should I live? Every day a innocent child dies for no reason. Why can't god strike me dead and give my remaining years to a child who deserves it? I do the world no good by living in it. I breathe needed are, and contribute to the planet's waste. I can't even hit a tennis ball even remotely with a racket. So what purpose do I have here?

I'd give my entire life to just have one more hug. Because when he holds me I never want to leave. I feel safe and like he may actually care just a little. I'd kill for a kiss. And I'd mass murder for him to care just the slightest.

I'm typing all this and I just feel selfish. Why should I get any of these? why should people die for something that will never ever happen? They probably deserve life a lot more than I do.