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When you have a powerful friendship with someone, you and that person interchange bits of personality. And sometimes those bits become strong that their friends can't get along with your friends, and your friends can't get along with their friends. Maybe different things happen to move you away from them. But, it's usually at least a minor factor that you and that someone's friends can't get along

For example....

Me and this one girl don't mix at all anymore. And she and Maci are best friends. MAYDAY!!!! That isn't the reason why she got pissed at me today. But it might be part of that. I asked her if she lies a lot and she got angry. I kept reminding her of my asking the question. But by the time she answered, she told me to ******** off.

We haven't been becoming better friends lately. Obviously she doesn't like me. There's gonna be a time when she hates me as much as the other girl does. I'm positive. Even though she and Topher are probably gonna be together for a while, she's going to hate me at some point. ********. My. Life....

She's said she and the other girl are much alike. And because the other one hates me, she's gonna hate me. But the other one's misjudged me. And given from how much Maci just flat out detests me, the other one will not enjoy my company, HELL NO.

Does this mean I have to become less of a jerk? To not be friends with Maci? And if I do that, Topher will dog me. And he's like my bestest bestest friend in the fuxking world, dudez!! Do I need to change to keep my friends? Do they need to adapt to me?

(Question does NOT apply to you, Maci... Not that I'm sure you'll read this until it's gone and over with) AM I a jerk? People hate me for being myself. I'm NEVER going to change for someone else, just like my mom; however much of a skank she may be.... Well, she hasn't really been a skank lately. She's been a lot better.

But, anyway. Am I going to have to do what I hate doing to keep my friends? OR will my friends adapt to me? And if so many people hate me because the person who I am is a jerk, will I ever get a girl? I'm just doubting myself more and more.