When I met David and our relationship as friends became closer, I was able to tell myself:
"Let it go."
"Everything will get better."
"Don't worry about it."
"You only have a few more years. You can deal."
But lately, I haven't been able to tell myself that. I've been more pessimistic about everything. Telling myself:
"You're life sucks. It's only going to get worse."
"You were lying to yourself."
"You want to die."
"Get rid of yourself before someone else does."
"No ones going to miss you."
I can tell there's something wrong with me... what am I going to do about it though? I can't help being upset. It's how I am most the time anymore.
The reason:
The loneliness is getting to me to an extremity that I can't deal with.
I miss David even if I talk to him. I'm always upset that I can't hug him at that moment in time, that I can't kiss him, that I can't be held by him. It's upsetting, I don't know what to do.
I can't really stand things, much, really. But what am I supposed to do about it? It's not my fault...
Somebody save me. Somebody give me advice.
Something... just... something. I need something... someone.
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