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I'm sorry.

I've gotten mad at you, stubborn with you, criticized you, blamed you, ignored you, and been an impatient girlfriend. You deserve to be treated way better. I put you through a lot of crap. And you've been great. You sacrificed so much to have my love. You sacrificed your family's acceptance of you. They treat you differently and you've lost closeness with them. Because of me. You wanted me no matter what you had to go through. You fought for me.

You spent months in North Dakota, lonely and cold, but yet holding up strong. Sad, but you never let any girl come into your life and take my place. You knew you'd come back, you never lost hope. You let no one's negativity allow you to give up. You kept going and you didn't let anyone or anything stop you. It didn't matter how long it took to get here, as long as we would be together in the end.

I haven't been the best these few months. I've been a very bad girlfriend and took you for granted. Assuming that you'll be there forever. Like the telephone, people take for granted, assuming it'll be here forever. But if it were lost then they would realize the huge role it plays in there life.

You are more important than any man made object. I rather have you than a phone. It's human to take things for granted, but you are the one thing I don't want to take for granted, and I'm sorry. I've been terrible.. just terrible. And I am willing to change, to change for you and for me, to change for everyone. I'll try my best.
I realized something today. You are the sun in my life. Without you, there would be no life. You help my life grow each and everyday. Your laughter is a light to my sky, cloudless or not. Your patience glistens over the harshest of seas. Your words brighten up the darkest of nights. Your love will shine it's warmth on my heart throughout eternity.

I can be the moodiest girl.. But you seem to break that every time. You can always make me laugh, always put a smile on my face. Only you can create that special happiness inside of me. I can't help but wanna smile when you do.
I know that a simple "I'm sorry" won't fix all our problems, but it's the first step.

You know, a lot of girls seem to say "There's nobody like him, there's no one better" I'll they're downright liars, because there is someone better, and that's You. You're every girls dream guy... and I'm glad you chose to give your love to me. It's wonderful to know that I'm the only girl you've had in your loving arms. I don't know how I would ever be able to live without your touch. As we get older, life isn't going to get easier, but I want all hardships, ups and downs, to be spent with you. I know I haven't shown love.. and for that I'm sorry.. I can tell you sorry a million times and for me it's not enough. My apology is sincere and I want you to know that, no matter what happens...




You'll always be my first love. Always.
I'd like to answer a few of your questions..




~9 Questions~

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby?
Yes you do, that's why I don't like starting because it's hard to let go of the kiss.

Does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy?
Well I pretend it does, most of the time it makes me feel wanted..

Do I have your love? Am I still enough?
You are my love, You're more than enough... I don't need more.

Tell me don’t I, or tell me do I baby?
You do. You are the best, and no one can replace you.

Give you everything that you ever wanted?
A great boyfriend and a life together.. I think that's more than everything.

Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely?
I thought it would be the right way, but as you can see, it was a mistake.

Do I just need to give up and get on with my life?
No. I don't want you to give up. You never give up, stay in my life.. stay with me..

Baby, do I?
As you can see, you are clearly needed and wanted here with me.. so yes.


That song was a lovely song and explained our relationship perfect. It's like you were the one singing it to me. I loved that song.. and it teared me up. It made me realize how you felt. I'm sorry, and I hope you forgive me.. for... everything.


I love you Charles Anthony Parker.