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6.Deep thinking

Thinking deeply is a really great tool to do a lot with. Thinking about the world and its ways in every way possible, basically hypothesizing about EVERYTHING, and sometimes actually coming up with a conclusion. It's amazing how much deep thinking can really open your eyes and how interesting it can get. Later, you start to wonder why you only thought of things one way. It's like going down one road, and then when you open your mind up, there are so many paths to explore on one road!
But anyways, I've thought about why God let evil onto the earth, and I thought about why there are so many religions and even littler things that may not be true but it's an idea.
One of the things I've thought deeply on is why are we here? I thought about that and I truly believe that we are here to train for something greater, and maybe for some, train for evil. But all good and evil mingle together down here so we can learn the difference between pain and happiness. But that's just an idea. We could be here for some other reason, but who knows. It's a thought. I also just thought that maybe there's only a few humans on earth, and a ton of angels roll-playing so they can teach us, but we aren't supposed to know it. That's probably not true, but it's just another idea. And why are there so many religions? Maybe it's another method of teaching us to live, maybe to wake us up to what we truly are? Or maybe it's God showing us the judgmental side so we can learn to live without the judging. Maybe, even, I thought one day, that maybe every religion is there so we can take pieces from each one, and see something, kind of like a scattered puzzle or something. All of these are just ideas, and I'm constantly thinking about different things. I do this with people's personalities too. I basically sit and think about what a person may be like if I said a certain thing, or did a certain thing, and why they'd react that way. I don't always get to do that though, but if I do something wrong, I try to find a way to smooth it over the next time I see them. Some people are just harder to deal with than others, but once you learn how, you can get along with anyone easily.
Deep thinking can do a lot. Sometimes, my deep thinking can get horrible though, almost like I have two sides of my brain, and they battle it out, positive things against the negative things. But at the end, the positive always wins. It just kind of drives me nuts as it goes though. Sometimes, my thinking battles can go on for weeks, and I have crazy mood swings, but that's just being human. God always has a reason for everything. It's just hard to see for a while. I didn't really believe that until I saw everything in my life molding me to who I am today, and the wonderful people in my life that I may have never met unless I went through these things. One thing that's going on now, I can't go anywhere. No horse shows, no out of state things, even my king's island trip got canceled. So what's the deal? Maybe he's trying to protect me from something. Maybe from that flu going around or maybe he wants me to pay more attention to writing this stuff so I can use it for other people too, or maybe something else. I just haven't figured it out yet, but he usually tells me at the end. We may not like what's going on at first, but it's always for the best, and God just wants you to get where he wants you to go. Once you truly open your mind, his light enters, and he really starts to change you, and you really start to understand what he's saying to you.