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9.Why I believe in God

Why do I believe in God like I do? Well, I was raised a Methodist church girl, but I just knew there was a God. I never really was that close to him. I was just like most people were. They know he’s there, and they love him, but they don’t really get close to him or they don’t see what he’s telling them. I asked him one night how I was supposed to get close to him when I never see him physically? It’s kind of hard to love someone you’ve never met. But that’s the point when I started to learn all of this stuff. When I went through something in life, he was trying to teach me these things, but he just seemed to open my mind so I could see that. Once I learned unconditional love, his voice just seemed to get louder to me. I still wonder if he speaks to me because of my open mind, because I’m doing things right, or because I give unconditional love to the world. Maybe it’s all of it. I just wish people could feel this, because it’s amazing! Everything is so different this way. You begin to understand the world and its ways, and how to deal with them.
Another reason I believe so strong now… I was lying on my bed one night, and I just told God and Jesus that I loved them, and I meant it. This feeling, so amazing I can’t even describe came over me all the sudden. I wasn’t expecting it at all. It was like they just blew this feeling on me like rain hitting my whole body. The feeling was indescribable. Just so amazing!
Everything I’ve ever prayed for has always seemed to happen, but only if it was safe for me. Even things I never imagined that would happen did. The things I prayed for that were not good for me, and I didn’t see that at the time, didn’t happen, or things that were not meant to be. It seems that everything that happens, it happens for a reason and creates a domino effect. One thing happens, so it changes someone, so it changes someone else, into many changes, and so on and so on. I just notice how people are sent into someone else’s life to change them, but they don’t always see it. I also see how everything just seems to fit together like a puzzle.
So I believe in God, but it’s so amazing how my life has changed since I’ve gotten to really know him. I mean, wow. People talk all the time how great it is to really know him, but they truly don’t know until they truly learn to listen. When I asked, he gave me answers, and I learned to keep an open mind. You truly see the world in a different life. You begin to feel everything that’s going on around you. You know the reason people act the way they do, you begin to truly understand every little detail. I mean, I really began to analyze my life, and it is a big path. I almost died being sick as a baby, but my bigger purpose is here, now to change lives. I truly within every beat of my heart believe that. I’ve seen how people are sent into lives to help change them, but that person doesn’t always see it. God’s helped me see every little detail in life. It’s almost crazy! Within every day that passes, I begin to see more and more. How people are sent into my life, to help them be happier. And I’m just getting better with every heart that I touch. God tells me what I need to do through my open mind, and I go do it. It’s so much easier to be this way than who I used to be. It feels so perfect, so right. Yeah, I still make mistakes, but I’m just getting better every time I see more. I just wish I could share this knowledge with people, because they begin to see, and everything is just so amazing; the journey of life how it just carries you and you never miss even the smallest pebble. It feels so good to be able to understand people, and feel their feelings, and be able to help them. I now know to teach people to truly get rid of that strapped down feeling in their life. It’s kind of hard to explain that feeling, well, it’s like, normal behavior for people, closed-minded, seeing only their way, and having a closed personality. People just be themselves and don’t feel the world around them like they should. And they run into a lot more pain, and they hurt more than they need to.
Now truthfully, I’ve noticed how closed-minded believers turn people from God. They just truthfully haven’t learned. They don’t know what they’re doing with God’s name. They make other believers look bad, and they need to be careful. It’s not as bad and as hard as they make it out to be. You can’t always listen to what a human tells you to do; you need to learn to listen to what God’s telling you to do, all by opening your mind. Even just some, eventually, he opens it more and more, and you just begin to truly see every little detail in life. Now I know the believers don’t mean to turn people away, they just think it’s right, but I can still feel that missing part in them.
I’ve just written this part because I felt the need to explain why and how I’ve found this knowledge. I just learned to see my past and how it had different paths to lead me here, by trial and error, so I could help other people be happier. Who knows, maybe this is just the beginning.
I’ve noticed how certain events in my life has happened, just to set off another series of events, to prepare me for something or to prepare me to help someone, and then more events happen, and it’s just opened me up so widely, I just take everything in, absorb it like a sponge, so I do believe there’s a reason for the smallest to the biggest problems and changes in life. It’s always to benefit you.