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It's going down too.... I'm having a hard time playing guitar and the band isn't reflecting me. So, I picked up my guitar and the sustain is like s**t. And my amp is frying up and I get random static and feedback when I try to solo. The humbuckers are out of shape too. Collecting a lot of dust.... And the weirdest thing happened to me. This is weird, but, my fingers HURT. Most people say their fingers hurt right when they start. It's been 16 months and now they finally hurt.

And, I'm getting sloppy. I can't bar the 12th fret anymore, I can't edge solo, and I keep looking at myself in the mirror, which distracts me from playing more. And my musical influence is at a peaking low. I don't wanna write riffs, I just wanna play pointless shredding solos

Then there's the band. Topher, Scriven, and Maci all want different things for the band. I can't see what they see in this. But, they don't seem to get that music is one of the arts.. Maybe this'll make more sense:

"And the men who hold high places
Must be the ones to start
To mould a new reality
Closer to the heart"

A band isn't for no reason, it's a work of heart. And, I'm the outcast. What the ******** is this s**t? I came up with the idea. I wanted to keep it simple, a hard rocking blues band with 3 or 4 people. Guess what we've become? A punk band with a punk name and slackers for members.

Taken For Granted? And Topher's sappy lyrics? That's not an expression of the soul. That's whining through music, the way I see it. Have we ever even gotten together to jam as a FULL band? No. Do we ever rehearse? No. Do we even care that this band is pointless? No.

Originally, it was going to be a band full of blues and rock, but we've turned into punk and bull s**t. I'm probably just gonna start a band with someone who understands the arts. And, I know "One likes to believe in the freedom of music," but there's a difference to freedom of what you hear and freedom of what you write and what you reflect.

Basically, the band has changed for the majority of us. We've become something I don't wanna be. And my guitar sounds like crap.... Nothing to do but practice now...

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"You can be the captain
I will draw the chart
Sailing into destiny
Closer to the heart"