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From bad to worse.
I wish it would all end. Seriously.

I screwed up my psat's (and any shot I'd ever have at getting a national merit scholarship), I'm failing physics, stupid people in my gym class broke my glasses, my subconscious keeps telling me that my friends hate me, my father keeps telling me how lazy, fat, and stupid I am.....

And, worst of all, it's true. Every last bit of it.
I am worthless, hopeless, and truely pathetic.

I honestly used to be smart... but nobody remembers those days. People used to love and respect me, but now.....

I walked out in front of a car on my way home from school. I didn't see the car, they but they saw me. My sister yelled at me for damning them for stopping. She says she's been hit by a car one to many times, and that I'd live through it anyway.

Damn it all..... every last bit of it.






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irisheyesfire
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commentCommented on: Thu Dec 22, 2005 @ 03:07am
you are the first person I was able to tell everthing to, so believe me when I say I don't hate you.You have plenty of people who love and respect you Sus told me what happened in gym, and her and I both want to go beat Seth over the head for what he did.She's so mad she can hardly speak. I know your bummed about alot but it will get better, I PROMISE. Whether you choose to believe me or not I seriously think you are a wonderful person. I'll talk to you in school tomorrow, after I go kick Seth in the A-frame. Love ya my friend, Bridget


commentCommented on: Thu Dec 22, 2005 @ 09:47pm
You are not worthless, hopeless, and truely pathetic. If anyone is it's me for becoming homeschooled and losing touch with those that I grew up with.
But you are smart and you always will be you were always one of the top people in the grade and to me you always will be. Even if you happen to be failing Physics. I almost always looked up to you when I was in school wishing I was as smart as you were. I still do wish that I was as smart as you or at least close to it. Your friends also don't hate you. I know I don't hate you. The reason why I lost contact with you and everyone else except for Jacqui is because I thought all you guys hated me seeing as you guys pretty much stopped talking to me unless you guys had to at 'botics.
And don't let what your dad says to you get you down. Just let it go in one ear and out the other. Because I know for a fact that you aren't fat, stupid, or lazy. You never have been and you never will be.
Just remember you do have friends that care about you even if they don't seem to talk to you much. I know I still care about all you guys.



pippi18848
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Cutesy the Butt Pirate
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commentCommented on: Fri Dec 23, 2005 @ 06:20pm
Hmm, I don't know whether to comfort you like everybody else...or give ya a kick in the a** for saying all that.

First off, Gladys and Bridget are right in all aspects, and you should know better than to doubt yourself so much.

I don't wanna be mean, but damn, girl, it ain't that bad. You'll be fine, I believe in ya, sugar.

...and you are not failing physics. And you won't unless you get a 63 or worse, which I sincerely doubt will ever happen.


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