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there i was
laying there resting my head on your chest, listening to the rhythm of the beat of my life
that sweet repetitive melody that is the reason for the fidelity
and not to mention the only remedy for all the pain that i experienced through time
i can't wait till we get married cause she'll be the last thing i'll see every night
and i'll be the first thing she see's every morning when she opens up her eyes
and yes that is a metaphor for the sunrise
cause it's not the sun but it's her that makes the birds sing, the flowers bloom, and i would too so
there i was resting my head on her chest listening to the rhythm and the beat of my life
yes my life altho that's her heart that's my wife
maybe not now but she will be in the future
so i wana make sure you get that right
cause i knew from the get go that i would never let go
to a love so special as this one
and if my life were a book she'd definitely be my favorite chapter
and i wouldn't give a damn about the pages that come before or after
and it maybe seem cliche but she is that sun that rises up my day
she's that sun that shines on the moon and that guides me through the dark at night
she's those squiggly marks on the screens at the hospital that says i'm still alive
and if she ever left me i would die
then those squiggly marks would turn into a solid line
and then you'd have to arrest her for voluntary man slaughter
but that's not gana happen cause we're gana get married and voluntarily give my mother a grand daughter
so i might as well stop writing this poem now and start writing my voes
cause i feel like i'm married at 16 and honestly that's ok with me if she's the bride to be
and i know damn well we're not getting a divorce cause losing her is like a sniper having only one shot
can't afford it
i'll chose her life over mine any day because she's way more important
and this girl knows me better then anybody els
hell she probably knows the back of my hand better than i do myself
and i pray inside of me that this isn't a dream but if it is
give me a pollow and blanket cause i'm going back to sleep so i can dream about her
cause even if i wanted to i couldn't stop myself from dreaming about her

but it might as well should of been a dream
cause it's no longer reality, you see it's not that she isn't the one for me but i'm not the one for her
who could provide her with all of her warms and needs cause she wants someone that's more
"good with words"
and i can stand in front of a bunch of strangers and make great conversations
but when it's just us two we seem to argue
tempers flair and we engage in confrontation
plain and simple she said i wasn't the same man she fell in love with in the beginning
and quit frankly it's a lose lose situation cause neither of us are winning
but it was she who cast the first stone when she let this MR. into the picture
allowed him so close to her home she let him kiss her
and whats ******** up is that this isn't the first time she was put in this situation
see i didn't know about it, but before i went to visit her
her homeboy went in for a kiss but she turned her face and gave him her cheek
and i didn't know about this cause she said she didn't feel it was a big deal or the need that she had to tell me
but after i went to visit her on the east coast and spent one of the most amazing weekends of my life with her
the day after i left homeboy goes in for the kiss made sure he didn't miss and i guess our love was to weak
cause she couldn't resist and she let those lips touch
i loved her so much but i guess this distance is to much for her to handle
"but i didn't cheat on you" she says
like that's supposed to ease the pain
and it doesn't matter cause those lips were for me and only me so it's gana hurt just the same
but i'll defend her
cause technically she didn't cheat
cause after a year and a half this distance was kicking our a**
so we decided to take a break
take things slow so we can work things out
but we made a promise
to stay physically,mentally and emotionally faithful
a promise
and i had no problem keeping my end of the bargain
but she broke that promise and i found out since she's been in collage she's been disloyal and dishonest
and i had to find all of this out on my own
not even from the girl who's heart i used to call home
but she realized kissing him was wrong so now she wants me back
so now it's up to me to dig down deep in my soul to forgive and forget to put the relationship back on track
but like that track by R kelly says my mind is telling me no,my body's telling me yes
but my hearts jumping up and down telling me "put this s**t to rest" i can't do it anymore
cause even tho the tables have turned and now the ball is in my court and for a change it's not me but it's her knocking at my door i can't answer it
i mean i can forgive her but i just can't forget
me not taking her back may lead to me living a life of regret but it's just not the same
so ima leave it up to the future cause it's gana show me the way
cause i was heading your direction but destiny put me on a detour
and said it has a plans to show me a woman that would love and appreciate me more
more then you ever did, more then you ever will cause after the stunts you pulled around my back
in my opinion you don't give a damn how i feel
so if i were to ever lay there again with my head on her chest
i will no longer be listening to the rhythm and the beat of my life
i'd just be listening to a heart beat, that broke mine

wrote this last year after getting back in contact with an ex i had when i was 16 and well poem says it all >_> REJECTED! xD o well she had her chance

-by Mike Hernandez aka Dirtflake