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you were supposed to be my baby
and i was finally worthy to be called the father to be
but we ran into some difficulties cause
mommy and daddy had differences
so therefore she didn't want you here so
now all i can do is imagine
me whipping away your tears
holding you when you had fears
watch you grow up over the years
because mommy didn't want you here
and i can't blame her for everything but i could blame her for most
but also i could of tried harder
she said she wanted me to change so i tried even harder
because i refuse my baby to grow up without a father
like some men would do
so i was willing to change the little things i do just for you
i was willing to cut all my hair off to find a job just for you
so basically i was willingly to take responsibility because that's what a real man would do
but now all i can do is imagine
me whipping away your tears
holding you when you had fears
watch you grow up over the years
because your not here
and it's crazy she kept using this baby for these excuses
she kept coming at me saying "baby? if we have this child you'll be useless"
but i was ready for it because i made it
so all the bullshit she was talking i told her to save it
because i am a real man
and my father didn't get rid of me
so i refuse to let her do it
so all the late night crying i was just gana have to get use to it
but she deprived me of my baby
so now all i can do is imagine
me whipping away your tears
holding you when you had fears
watch you grow up over the years
because your not here
and now my tear drops never stop
every time i even think about a baby my heart drops
i mean most people can't even have babes and she killed mine
and the ******** up thing is she didn't even tell me when she did it
she did it on her own time
******** what i was talking about she made up her own mind
and i tried to change it
i swear to god i tried as hard as i could to change it
but i couldn't
so now
all i can do is imagine
me being happy

-By Felipe Barrios aka Smoke