Dear Journal
At This Point In Life, I Don't Know What&When Things Are Changing...
Honestly, I Don't Even Know If Things Are Gonna Change....
For The Better Or The Worse???...I'm Scared Of My Own Life....
Its Sad To Say, But I Am.... It Only Took One Day... Just one Day... For My Life To Change....
And I Don't think Lifes Gonna Turn Back Soon.... If Your Asking Why I'm Writing this...
Don't.... I Mean Like, My Journal Entry's And Letters Can Be Like A Suicide Note...
Your Asking, Really?... Yes It Can Be... I'm Not Saying These Are... these Can...
Sometimes, I Even Ask Myself... What Changed?...
Sometimes Its Like This To Long... I Forget What i Was Really like...
What's Changed... I Forget What I Loved Most About Myself......
I Really Loved... My Happiness... My True Happiness...
I'd Always Smile... All The Time... Because I Knew There Was Nothing to Worry About...
Now, Its Like, I have To Be Cautious About everything That Happens Around me...
I Don't Wanna Build Anger And Take It Out On My Kids Later In life...
Who Would Wanna Do That?... Everyone Wants Whats best For Their Kid...
I'm Supposedly A Calm Hearted Person... But On the Inside...
I'm Screaming For Help.... I Don't Wanna Make It Seem like I'm The Only One...
But, I Just Want people To Think Of It As Me Speaking Out For The People Who Are Like This...
The Happiest People On Earth Can be The Most Heart Broken...
And I Don't Always Mean That In A Relationship Way... Like A....
My Heart Hurts Because This is Changing or whatever...
For Goodness Sake, I Cut And People Don't Take The Time To Sit Down, Listen...
And Really Ask Why... Only Really One Person Has... But We Both Just have The Same Problem...
The People Who Either Changed My Life In A Way, Or Made It Complicated For Me....
I Hope You Know When You Either Walked Out Of My Life, Did Something Or Made My Life Complicated...
Thanks Alot, That Showed How Much you Totally DIDN'T CARE!!!
About The Actions You Made To Ruin Or Change My Life...
And One More thing... The Cuts And Scars On My Arm...
Has Your Name Written All Over It... You Better Keep that In Mind...
Cause The Next Time I Cut... Your Name Will Be Dripping With The Blood...
I have Nothing Else To Explain or Say...
Bye...
Thanks For Readying...<3
- Kayleen <//3
 iiS m o o t c h i e · Thu Jul 02, 2009 @ 12:59am · 1 Comments |
