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this is a real texting conversation between me and a boy
(we just got back home from hooking up)

him: ********, I want more of you smile
me: Baby, you don't know how much I want to be with you.
him: Maybe we can do more next time wink
me: Too bad I'm not going to ******** a guy that I'm not dating.
him: Ok, what?
me: Nevermnind, just.. Nevermind.
him: You want me to ask you out...
me: Well, yeah.
him: I'm not ready to do anything official.
me: Hmm..
him: It would really hurt some people's feelings sad
me: Well then why did we hook up?
him: Because I really like you
me: Well.
him: Okay, well. You know how in hay River I told you I like a lot of people?
me: Mhmm..?
him: I got really ******** complicated with one of them. So I don't do anything with her except text, but she says that she loves me :S And I'm friends with lots of her friends and I don't want them to all hate me for not going after her.
me: Wow... I totally just got rejected. sad
him: Technically yes, you did. But I really really want to say yes but I would have to deal with so much s**t all summer.
me: Well, goodnight.
him: So you're just going to stop talking to me?

(I didn't reply)

him: Wow, I sound really ******** stupid and I'm pretty much screwed right now.
me: Yes, You probably are. And you think YOU'RE screwed? What about me? Do you know how embarrassed and shitty I feel right now?
him: I'm far from perfect. And really shitty with girls. I can't help you feeling embarrassed, but if you stop talking to me you're only rejecting yourself.

(I didn't reply)

him: I'm just trying to say that you'd be missing out.
me: Listen, I'm feeling really shitty about this right now, And I just want to sleep. That's ALL I want. And you're wrong, YOU are the one who is missing out.
him: By the way, when I said that I had to deal with lots of s**t, it's not from you. It's from everyone else. And please don't feel bad about this too.
me: WTF! How can I NOT feel bad about this? And you aren't the only one who is dealing with s**t. Okay?
him: ********, there's no way to say that I'm extremely sorry about doing this and it's hard on me and it is for you. I feel like s**t for saying no.
me: Well.
him: Well..?
me: I have nothing left to say.
him: I'm going to let you sleep. Goodnight.

(I didn't reply)

him: Get some sleep. I'll always talk to you if you ever feel like it.

(I didn't reply)

him: And thanks for tonight wink


and guess what?
he sent me messages this morning too!
i don't know why he didn't just stop texting me.
he should have got the picture from last night that i didn't want to talk to him.
at all.


him: To tell you the truth, as beautiful and as fun as you are, I wanted this for the sex aspect of it. Not actually a relationship. I'm so sorry for being to selfish.
me: Wow Jamie. Good to know that you are just like EVERY guy out there that has ever hurt me. I thought you were different. Have a nice life... I hope you aren't as lonely as you deserve to be.
him: At least I told you the truth. I just didn't know you wanted a relationship so bad.
me: I didn't want it BAD. I wanted to be with you but all you want is that sexual stuff. I feel like you only wanted to ******** and chuck me. Low.

(He didn't reply)

me: And I only wanted YOU.

(He didn't reply)

me: And if I'm as hot as you always tell me, I have to re-evaluate my standards because I KNOW I can to better.
him: Well YEAH I wanted to ********, but I'd definitely wouldn't be able to just give you up after I had a bit of fun. When we were holding hands yesterday, it felt just as good as when we were making out.

well then mr.
why don't you want to BE WITH ME?
hmm?
can you answer that?
exactly.
boys are extremely stupid and should be banished from earth.
(: