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I got this from Topher and figured, why not just rant about hat I hate in my life?

I hate my tiny bathroom-sized living space
I hate my sister for acting like she will always be invincible
I hate that I'm so lonely
I hate that I will never find a girlfriend
I hate that I've been called an idiot and stupid so many times
I hate my dad for not being there when I needed him
I hate my grandparents for neglecting me
I hate my social skills
I hate this food shortage
I hate being left in the dust
I hate my horrible composing skills
I hate summer school
I hate my mother
I hate this sore throat
I hate that I love what everyone else hates
I hate heavy metal
I hate rap
I hate Miley Cyrus
I hate the Jonas Brothers
I hate Pop
I hate living in a shed
I hate my slouch
I hate that nobody cares for my guitar playing
I hate that I can't play a solo in the A minor scale
I hate that I can't go to the Aerosmith concert in August
I hate that I have more skill than my dad (20 years under his belt) and I've only been playing for 14 months and everybody tells me he is way better
I hate my friends leaving me out of their conversations
I hate that I've never had a real girlfriend
I hate that the girl I have feelings for (It's not Mae) doesn't care that I feel how I feel
I hate that I can't even try alcohol
I hate being called a stoner
I hate my recording equipment
I hate my amp
I hate that my best friend is so much better with girls than I am
I hate that I've never been blessed with charm or good looks
I hate vomitting
I hate that there is no article to play guitar like Joe Perry
I hate that everyone loves Slash
I hate that I'm so weak
I hate feeling like nothing but blubber
I hate being called anorexic
I hate being called bulimic
I hate emos
I hate posers
I hate d**k Chaini
I hate being a whimp

All this and why is it I keep going? I got no reason to keep going, and nothing I love. I just go with what's been written. SHould I just die? Why can't I be like the people that have more than I do? I don't have anything worthwhile left. Like a girlfriend, a caring family, or money. Maybe I'm selfish. All I have are my friends and they won't be around when I'm 18.... After High school, what'll I be like? Will I be a talented musician like Joe Perry or Slash or Kurt Cobain? Will I be a suicidal loser that threw away my life?

I need a direction. I need pride. I need someone to be there for me. I need someone to love. I need someone to show me what I've been missing. I need.... to go to bed....