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It's funny...you can be strong, you can say you don't need anyones help...you can fool yourself into happiness...
yet...when it comes down to it...it's such a lonely life. Sometimes it seems as if i'm watching life in slow motion...and I'm the only one standing still.

Am i really so weak?

People say "Do what you have to...or the moment will just pass you by"

there are chances all the time...and when i had to make a decision...i never risked it.

you know...nothing lasts...and with me...everyone leaves in the end.

even if you promise to stay forever...time doesn't work that way...and you'll find one day that you never made such a promise. You can't remember...and can't imagine you would do such a thing.

I cling to peoples' arms...because i'm scared...i know they'll leave eventually...so is it that wrong...to hold on? When i see them walking in front, it may sound strange, but i feel like stopping...and turning around to walk back to where i started. Because i'm too weak to say goodbye.

i smile when it hurts...i laugh when i'm broken...and when i cry...i'm never sure why. It could be at any random moment...i'll feel like crying, and it makes me even sadder...because i can't remember why i'm sad.

my memories are disappearing....

when i grow up...i want to have the courage to hold on to something i love...and the strength...to let go.