Highlights of my day:
I ate
I did the dishes
True. I woke up at 10 (GREAT night's sleep!!) and I had to do work first thing when I got up... I have a paranoia of dirty dishes I've yet to break... And my dad wants me to do it first thing in the morning while I have an upset stomach? DUDE!!! SERIOUSLY!!! You just don't do that!!!
I had to wait 45 minutes before I could even eat breakfast...
And then I went to my grandpa's birthday. He's 71 now, I think.... Anyway, I got out of my horridly blazing hot shed of a house and into a 2-story house with a pool for 7 hours. So, yeah, that was fun. And, I got to see my cousin.
On to business. I started thinking and I realized, all I do in my journals is gripe about what sucks in my life... And the main thing I'm after in life is a relationship. Pfft. Like that'll happen.... At least, that's what I'm after right now. As of yesterday, I think I've FINALLY relinquished the way I feel about that one girl I started liking in February. 'Bout ********' time!!
And, I'm picking up how to down-up pick with guitar. I'm shredding like a virtuoso! Problem being I've lost my ability to play some of my favorite riffs. But, thankfully, I can still play my number 1 favorite. And, I got an AC in my room! Better yet, we've finally found a vocalist for our band! Things are looking up. And, on the downside, I have to take summer school. But, that won't be that bad will it?
So, yeah. For the first time ever, I'M NOT COMPLAINING!!! It's got me sitting, staring at the ceiling while listening to Aerosmith and I can think without feeling depression or remorse for things I've done or anything. And, although I'm pretty certain I've given up my feelings for that girl, I can;t help but wonder if she reads my journal...
Last time I checked, she hadn't been on since Christmas... 5 months it's been so I wonder if she ever logs on... No reason to ignore her, right? I mean I've gone out of my own way of life to go for it and fail, but that's no reason I can't be friends with her, eh? Heh... That brings me to something I remembered. I was hanging around her and Kelsey (because I was about to go to Engineering and I have no friends in that class) and she told me to leave and go to Rochford's class.
See, thing is, I would have IF I had any friends in that class. I consider friends to be people I can talk to and rely on a lot. My definition of a friends has to be a lot different from her's... Yeah. Like it says on my profile, I latch on to my friends. I'm not joking. What I consider a friend is, basically, someone whom I would choose to be with every day of my life
Anyway, my point is, I wouldn't have followed her to class if I had a friend in Rochford's class. And, I had two friends right there in front of me. Seriously, considering my situation, would you have taken off or stayed?
So, without any complaining at all (Only a summary of my day and me recalling an event on Thursday), I'm off to play video games, then play guitar. Just to disturb the peace. Lol
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... But literature...
'Cause I like to play music
... But literature...