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I'm tired of this
having the urge to go
wanting to still think too
these reoccurring dreams starting over at the middle
always training more
when will I be enough for me
when will the shouts stop me
how could I show my face
I'm no where perfect
some times I feel tired
I feel like drifting in this world
I just want to let it all go
but then I won't be good enough
Not just for me either!
If I didn't have a reason to fight
I wouldn't care how I end up
but unfortunately I do
I lose but stay undefeated
a cross
between want and need
I'm not sure which desire is which
My love or my brake

How does life allow me to complain
At least I have a desire
At least I have my dreams
I still have family
I still gain friends
I have what I need to live
and bonds to share it with
Maybe I'm just s**t
I guess it's as well that I am
I live
my birth has always been sin
I'm just a waste of the animals, plants, and clothes I use
Believe me I feel bad
But I can't help wanting to laugh
at the truth
I don't really care If I am
really just a waste
I can't say I'm sorry for my self
the truth is what you believe it to be
and I deserve what I believe