I miss my best friend. [Kortney]
Right now, I don’t want to talk to anyone, I just want to spend time thinking, but I don’t want to be alone, I want to have friends, or a friend that knows me fairly well to be around. I think it’s because we enjoy being around friends, and just the ideas of having someone around, even if your not talking to them, softens or eases your thoughts.
Kortney is a favorable friend of mine, and I think I trust her than everyone else I know. We’re both super creative and talented, yet have proven our obvious flaws to each other. [Kortney: I think you’re mistaken, that’s just you. :} ]
We’d communicate at sleepover’s via animal crossing while in the same room, not really listening to everyone else’s conversations. We’d go over to her house and stay up late watching movies we enjoyed and wanted to get ideas from for the stories we wrote. We’d go to Borders, she’d help me with math and we would draw cartoons. We’d stay up chatting on Yahoo or AOL instant messenger. We’d spam each other’s gaia profiles and mock each others form comments. And we tried to have a photo shoot once lol. I’m not a very good model.
So right now, I’d rather be at her house doodling, or going through the newest “life” volume, while she raped her computer or something completely awesome like that.
But that’s 800 miles away. And she probably has school tomorrow. And it’s 10:00 pm here, and the only person to talk to is Andrew. And that’s via text. Bla.
They call my generation the “Generation of Technology” and such things similar to that title. They say we spend more time alone with our electronics, listening to ipods, playing violent video games, and updating our twitter or face book status. [And for some, still myspace]
They say the technology has belittled our communications skills. Which is in a sense, completely matter of opinion. I don’t agree at all. And it’s simple why;
1. Youtube: You make videos of yourself and friends, learning how to entertain and inform.
2. Status messages: People CONSTANTLY update their status messages. This is so that others will read them, and know what this person’s up to. It just means we want attention. And we want to communicate. When we set out mood to ‘lonely’ we probably want someone to chat with.
3. Social Network photos: We set these to show off that we have lives, and our interesting people. Hoping others will comment, and that we’ll find ourselves in other people’s galleries.
4. MMORPG’s: massive multiplayer online role play game. Examples are Halo, WoW, CoH, FFlyff.
Sure, these are all fun games. But the catch is, with these games you wear hears sets, and use mics, getting to play with other people. And you don’t have to worry about what your wearing [unless your webcaming too lol] You can relax, make jokes, eat, play, and crash at 4 in the morning!
5. Forms and journals: I know may ‘a form whores. People who will post on everything, saying anything, at anytime. So much so they become popular for it and get more zombies to add to their virtual friend’s list. Many people [most I know from ‘Deviant Art’] will also put up to 3 journal entries a day [I average once a month now ’a days] listing things that have happened that day, what they’ve done, what other s have done, and all their bland personal thoughts that mange to pop into their head as they type away.
So this brings [me] to conclude, that we are not really a generation that fails to communicate, but rather a generation STRIVING to communicate. Even the most reserved people will fall a bit prey to these ways.
They tend to get caught off balance, wanting to maintain doing this things, yet having a real friend around, and others to talk to at school. I think they just need someone who’s on the same page as them, a best friend, and they’ll be fine. Because these people [like myself] don’t always want to talk, as I stated earlier. We are rather found of the company of our thoughts. I’d rather sit there for 2 hours playing a video game with a really close friend and only have a couple short conversations, then go to an amazing amusement park with acquaintances. Oh wait. I have.
Allow me to tell you about these situations. :]
[Stephan] got me into the game ‘World of Warcraft’. He knew I was a fan of online games, like mmo’s, [my first was Runescape lol] And on February 14th [Yes, valentine’s day] I finally played.
See, my brother and his wife were moving in, and they would be living in the basement. Which is where the computer room use to be. So for about a week the family computer was just sitting up stairs on the floor, waiting to be unpacked on a desk and turned on. [<-innuendo]
Now, I had been talking to [Stephan] over the OLD [and slow] computer during this time, and that day[which was a Friday, and I had stayed home sick] he asked me if I could help him study via Skype, so I said yes. Directly after he got off I kidnapped the family computer [and all it’s components] and set it up in my room.
Now thing is about our Skype conversations, we would hardy talk. Even before we started playing WoW together.
If we felt like talking, we’dstart humming a random tune, an the other one would join in, and then we’d be lucky enough to actually talk and joke around. We talked more while playing WoW.
See, on WoW, after a certain level the monsters and beast will just start attacking you if you come within their attack range, so one night, me a still a noob, him showing me the ropes, but me enjoying to attack every beast in sight, well. . .
“You got another one on you, hun.”
“Ah-I know I’m just trying to finish this one first.”
“Ah! I got 3 on me. I think we gotta run”
“Yeah, let’s run [lol”
Soon enough, we were running, beast behind, and then, before we knew it, the 5 beast chasing us turned into an entire mob!
All no thanks to my Nebie-ness. XD
That’s one of my favorite memories.
Along with the one time we we’re in the caves, and I kept attacking extra beast just because I could, dispite the fact I didn’t have to kill them for the quest. It was a lot of over kill fun for me, made [Stephan] laugh at my trival ways.
He had a character with long-distances attacks, and would heal us both from behind. While I went for face to face combat. I still can here him saying “Go get ‘em tiger.” That one little line, with the little one time use pet name made my night. <3
However.
First time I went to Ceder Point’ . . . . . . .I felt miserable. There were only 2 good things about that day.
1. I got to visit the infamous Cedar Point and go on roller costars.
2. This was the day I first heard the song “House of Wolves” by My Chemical Romance.
I felt like I was DYING and kept coming up with 2 dreams.
1. Getting Kidnapped by My Chemical Romance, even though I didn’t know much about the band it’s self at the time.
2. Running into some random person who understood me. I was on the constant look out like a lost kid in the grocery store looking for her mom. Eyeing everyone interesting. Looking around. Zoning out. And putting my classic “happy-go-lucky” act on so no one would know. My acting skills REALLY sucked that day, but no one knew me close enough to tell. Hardly anyone does! Lol
That place was gorgeous to. The view from the top of the roller costers where something out of photo shop 7. It was like life paused. Then sent me the wrong way fast. And note to self- NEVER-EVER wear tight khaki shorts if you plan to go on water rides and wear purple panties D: . . .yeah. lol.
I have opinions on everything.
I don’t judge people. I watch them for their reactions and conversations. Some people more than others.
Some take me 4 to 5 months and can send me messages online on 3 different social networks and become my 100th youtube subscriber before I notice them.
Then I can make myself look like an idiot who flirts with their friend, causing them to wonder “What the hell was I thinking, talking to this chick?” . . . .what a d**k. But I don’t blame them.
We do stupid stuff in order to keep to ourselves.
Say stupid things, shut people out when we have so much to stay. Keep our distance from those who seem to like us on a high scale, just because we believe we’re not on the same page, and that other person has no idea who we are. [Which is in a lot of cases true] but it can feel so much better to tell someone what’s on your mind sometimes. As suckish as that reads.
I didn’t tell ANYONE who I liked until this year. First time it was a mistake, because it was a small crush, that went away super fast. The next one was obvious, and I couldn’t deny it. So I went ahead and said it. BLAH. . . . I don’t regret that.
I actually couldn’t wait for the moment until someone [imparticular] would say “you still like him don’t you?”
And when he did ask me that, IT WAS NOT GOOD FOR MY EGO biggrin
I gave that person a piece of paper with quotes on in, quotes that the person I like just my understand. It’d be ok if he didn’t. I kind of hope he’s not as ‘secretly awesome’ as I make him out to be. It’d give me a reason to not be interested in him. [but in case you haven’t guess, I wanted him to read the letter. Though it came off as if from a conceded a confused girl that was unknowingly smart lol]
I haven’t believe the semester’s about halfway over D:
It’s going so fast and I’ve had a crush on that guy the entire time! >O
WHATTHEBLAZINGSADDLESHASHAPPENEDTOMEH!?!?!?!?!?!?!
. . . .Haha. . . . they made a blazing saddles reference in Family guy this past Sunday. Where Peter gets injected with the ‘Gay Gene’
BUTTHATSNOTMYPOINT!!!!!!
[I use to draw all the time, make youtube videos and comics, now I’ve become completely uninspired and don’t really do anything! It’s pathetic. I miss working my a** off.]
When I was in this guys’ biology class last semester, I was fine talking to him. And we honestly talked more then, then we do now. When he sit’s at my lunch table. [Well, it’s more like his and Andrew’s]
5 people sit there, Me, Punky, Ben, Joe, and Andrew. I’m the only girl. Making things more akward. And did I mention me and Andrew text way WAY too much?
And so I often, for no real reason at all, get nervous, and feel like barfing at lunch, and crashing afterwards if things don’t go well. And for some reason my vocal control turns off during lunch, so I hardly say more than 5 words, yet talk non-stop in my fallowing art class.
I know I get sick because of nervousy and stress, and usually I can’t stop shaking. I’m slowly but surley getting better, but I think the table get’s more unintelligent everyday.
I know, feeling like that almost everyday and not doing anything about it [though I try] is madness. Yet I feel like I’m learning things from these douche-bags XD
I mean, now I actually listen to nerdy facts other than talk about them myself! And I have people who will go to the opening movie shows with me. [Like we did for Watchmen! 8D ] . . . . . . .[I can’t WAIT for G.I. Joe, transformers 2, Wolverine, Dragonball, and some others! X) ]
DEARLORD!I”VEWRITTENFIVEPAGESALREADY!
Well. . . .I’ve got a stick of gum, and your pop’in ;]
. . .not really. I just find that amusing.
Just as I do, turning the F.U.N song from Sponge Bob into a GIANT innuendo.
I mean, F is for friends who do stuff together, right? ;]
“It tingles! Should we stop?”
“NO! That’s how your suppose to feel silly!”
Heeheehee.
It’s now 11:18.
I’ve been typing for 78 minutes. So now I will fall prey to the modern forms or “reach-out” communication” and post this up somewhere and the crawl in bed, listening to my ipod.
I sure hope SOMEONE reads this.
But more so that they relate to it.
Just remember I'll be back, I still have so much more to say!
Good night Microsoft word, I’m glad you’re here for me[lol]
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