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Dear Soren,

I'm sorry for all the trouble that I may have caused you, Jade, or anyone else. I just want to let you know that you mean the world to me and that I'd die for you. You may have heard this before, but it's only because it's true. So I don't care about what you've done, where you've been, or who you are; I don't care if you’re a criminal. All that doesn't matter to me. The only thing that matters to me is your happiness and that you feel loved and fulfilled! And I know you have your own goals and I know they may keep you from me, but I'm alright with that. You can send me a post card once a year and call me every other month for a few short seconds; it's plenty. Because I know you're alive and doing well and that's what will keep me going on every single day. Sometimes I wonder if I'm normal, but then I look back and remember the first time I spoke to you. I commented on your first Sasuke love story. From there I knew I'd form a bond with you; I couldn't be happier. So here I write to you, my story Soren, because I hope you pass it on to my children, and my children's children, because I know you will. I hope you're happy too, I want you to be a part of my family when I'm older. I want my children to welcome you home, shower you with kisses, call you 'auntie’, and beg to sit on your lap and ask endlessly for you to tell them stories. I just hope you'd be willingly to, to be part of my family, to be my friend till my last heart beat, to be happy with me in my house in the country that has a spectacular view of the ocean. Yes Soren, I want you to be a part that, my future. And I want Jade with me too, I want her to make it big and remember me. But my faith is waning, I sometimes feel as if she's forgotten me and our old jokes we shared. But deep down there's hope. So no matter what happens, no matter who you become or what you did, as long as you remember you have a home with me, I'm going to love you from here till here after. Even when I'm dead I'll look over you from the sky and beg for your forgiveness for not being able to live long enough with you. But remember who you are; you're my shooting star. In the sky filled with Time Square's lights and country side stars, you're the shooting star I keep looking up to. You're my inspiration, my air, and my happiness. I just hope you somehow feel the same way about me too.