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From last year I have learned my lesson about cheating; to never do it again.
I lost a very close friend. Although I did apologize, our friendship has changed.
I guess it must be weird to use a friend.

But that was last year.
I'm not like that anymore, but what was that saying?
"Once a cheater, always a cheater."

No, I'm not fessing up that I'm cheating because i have been completely faithful.
In my dreams I cheat.

Estimated a few weeks ago, I had this dream that I was in the SafeWay located by my girlfriend's home. Who else but Miley Cyrus ran up to me. She seemed excited. Quickly calming, she shut her eyes and began to lean in. I was about to when her guards interrupted us. The men in the dark suits told the Pop Star that she must leave immediately. While being pulled away Miley squealed, "Call me!"

I have 2 best friends. 1 is named Julia. She and I are really close, but I've noticed as we got older, our relationship isn't a "friendship" anymore. I only see her a couple times a year because her family has to keep moving away to keep up with her father's job.

Last year, or 2 years ago, every time I would see her she'd do something sexual to me. I remember when I was getting my dinner, Julia pushed me against a wall out of view from every1 else at my own home and started leaning in to kiss me. I gently pushed her off.

Earlier that day, we were in my room and randomly she crawled on top of me. I was sprawled out on the rug and she was in position. I refused to kiss her so she pulled herself off.

Another time she tried to kiss me, but I don't remember the details, just that I wouldn't kiss her.

1 day we were on the phone and she confessed that she wanted to move far away where gay marriage was accepted and we could get married. She had everything planned out, it sounded. I confronted her about it later. She denied ever saying that or acting sexually. She said though that she will stop if I wanted. To tell the truth, I kind of miss the sexual behavior from her. It is as if our friendship only lasted on those tendencies.

Now my other best friend is named Samantha. I had a big-a** crush on her last year and told her about it this year. I'm over her though. She was 1 of the straightest girls I knew, but now, she's getting a little iffy.

She flirts with me, and even asked me out on a date! She was the only person I told her about my problems with my girlfriend. I didn't as so much speak of Caitlyn, but what was wrong with me and that I might be losing her. I guess my attitude showed that I did not care, though I did. Samantha read it wrong. My guess is that she thinks that I'm in a weak position at the moment and can take advantage of me. Little does she know, I'm fully aware and will let her do as she pleases.

Last year I'd have a few sexual dreams about Samantha and I'd wake up feeling filthy. I cannot ever see myself doing anything more than on a friendship level with her. She's like a sister to me!

The night that Caitlyn "broke-up" with me, I had 1 of those dreams about Samantha again, but I woke up without feeling dirty, but the same as before I went to bed.

Just last night, I had a dream about this new lesbian girl. Yes, I find her attractive, but I do no see myself in a relationship with her. Hell, I've barely even had a conversation with the girl!

Here was the dream:
My character arrived in the bathroom at school by shoving the door open. No1 was speaking yet, but echos were still heard. Infront of the person portraying myself was that new lesbian girl; that butch. She looked up at me for a quick second. When our eyes met, she hurriedly darted her eyes elsewhere.
Though seeming shy, she spoke.

"Hi. I really like you and...." Seeming nervous, she reached her hand behind her neck, "I've seen you around. I've asked my friends about you. They approve, they do. They said I should ask you... I just- I really like you and I was hoping that you'd wanna go out with me."

"Oh?" The impersonation of myself seemed shocked! "It's just that you're a butch. If people see us together-" The figure, or myself, cut off and exited the restroom with the other girl. The other butch, the real butch, walked away sadly.
My character turned around, studying the opposite girl.

"You know what? Don't tell my girlfriend about this."

She nodded, smiled, and left away with a skip.

My character later saw the girl at a talent show, but decided not to say anything to her infront of her friends. The person playing me must've forgotten about her friends' approval.

I woke up disappointed, almost wishing that dream had been true.
Does that mean I want to cheat?
I'm not that kind of person anymore.
I am reformed.