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Those of you that know me know that I've been going through some rough times.
My hands shake uncontrollably, my chest pains me so bad I collapse, my head hurts so bad I upset myself to the point of throwing up, and of course my bipolar disorder.
Well... nosy me had to go and look all of these things up on the internet.
The result?
Heart Disease.
As much as I wish that this is not the case, it seems to be.
I haven't talked to the doctor yet,
and even as I type this the left side of my chest is just killing me, and my hands shake and curl when I lift them from the keyboard.
Looking back from glancing out the window, I have to wonder...
Why me?
I mean... I wouldn't want it to be anyone else of course...
But honestly, why me?
I could understand one disorder, but more than 2?
Honestly, what is my creator thinking?
The only thing I keep constantly thinking is "I don't want to die, I don't want to die.."
Mabye I should stop looking things up....