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Teh Roxi's account that is deeper than it needs to be
You guys get to read me ranting, complaining, and whatever, although, I do tend to rant a lot... i depends on what mood I'm in. I'l probably be deep, sometimes, or when I'm mad I'll be mad, or whatever. But it'll probsbly be deeper than it needs to b
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Live stinks sometimes, you know that?
I just wanna strangle someone right now, just throw them on the ground, and bash their brains out. I don't know why I feel so violent today, it just is that way.
Ah, a thought just slapped me across the face. Why is it, that I'm trying to be someone that I'm not?
for some reason, online, I am someone who has complicated feelings, and can be called emo. I express my emotions even more drastically than nessisary, and I simply ignore the fact that I'm overreacting. You see, I'm just a normal person, living an ordinary life, but happens to live on the computer, big whoop. I feel as if I act to much, I make a big fuss over when I think my heart is broken, of i get the feeling that I'm depressed. But how do I know that these emotions are real? Are they just me wanting to be emotional andoverrracting at the smallest things? Every seems to confuse me sometimes, like, why is it, that I feel so strongly about dark music?
Yes, I admit it, I am slightly obsessed with metal, but does that mke me strange? Is it so terrible for someone of my age to love bands like Avenged Sevenfold, or Rise against? I'm often told that it is, maybe I was just exposed so early on. I just find that the lyrics are very deep, and that they are prodding deeper into the problems with the world. Whilst other pop artists rattle on about love and all that crap, the music I listen too may have a lot of screaming, and guitar solos, but it sends a message. I was recently listening to a song that was explaining how much we hide form the world, how much we lie about ourselves. It exposed the pain in the world, and how even though there was a mask over it all, no one could deny that life, wasn't as it seemed. It a wasn't all perfect, and not every single person was always super happy. No, people have problems, no one's perfect. There are wars that we fight, and kill others, all in the name of our country, but istn't there just something wrong with that?
Gosh, my head is running to thick with deep thoughts right now, I'm just almost overwhelmed. I often find myself thinking that I should write a book, discussing my thoughts on various topics, or maybe I should be a polotican, or something crappy like that. But then, when i start to get passionate about something, I just find myself repeating things, over, and over and over. and falling totally off topic.
And here I go again, my mind wandering back to the "strange girl topic."
That's me for ya, well, it seems that for now, I have sucked my deepness dry, that is all I have to say for now.
 Teh Roxii · Tue Nov 11, 2008 @ 02:51am · 0 Comments |
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