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Always craving for insanity
Going crazy
Hear the walls crumble
Watch these eyes roll back into my head
They hunger for something
So sick of normality
Kill me..
Blood running within me
Then suddenly it STOPS
Exactly what i needed
So sick of this reality
Now the beat stops
This heart stops
These veins stop
Just purple black and blue
The feeling once existed
The color was once present
Now it's faded no longer warm and real
Just cold and dead
Now tell me something
Do you feel that or do you feel reality?
Well here are some words of advice
Just let the dead out
Block it out
It just gets worse
Nothing ever gets better
What is better
nothing..
Money, love, fame, friendship, material things
They won't ever make you happy
They all are some pathedic attemp
Will they make you happy?
Why look when you still can't see?
Why scream when you can't be heard?
Why cry when you can't be felt?
The only object is pain
Creation was useless it soon shall be ended
More pain will still build up
More lies will still build up
Everything will still build up
But happiness will just build down
As they continue to tear down these walls
They crumble and they fall
But why do we still continue to build them up
I guess we are waiting for something
Is it our new rude awakening?
The thought just keeps ripping at me
The walls continue to fall
It's all falling apart
But I keep building
Keep building them up
Is this useless?
Is this pointless?
Is there an answer to every question?
To be or not to be?
That is the ******** question...
It's heard over and over again
Why be when you know someday you won't be?
Not to be will happen
Real or fake
Man upstairs are you real or are you fake?
I keep crying
I keep yelling
I keep cutting
I keep drowning and still no response
If you're real then where is the ******** answers
You use
You bruise all these objects
We all are dead objects to you
You laugh at our pain
Everyday situations
Still no response
Where the hell are you?
I'm so tired
Got the best of me
Just like so-called friends
They come and go
Just when you finally think you can trust them
They let you go
They lie and hurt bring more pain to you
I guess that's what you
I look towards the opposite
Live in destiny
Getting my hopes up cause these things we dream will never come true
MY life is forever darkened so black and so blue
For now on all I wanna do is just sit in my room
Just cry forever more
Let it flood the Earth
Everytime i ask for an answer
You just let me go
You will never dry these tears
Now these emotions
At times love 'em hate 'em want them or want them to go away
Why the confusion?
Here come the tears again...
I'm sick and ill i'm giving up...
you think i'm lying watch me shutup
As the clock strikes 1 maybe 3 or 4
This boy will no longer be here anymore
Here is the end...
I'll be forever gone