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Have any of you reading this ever had one person...someone you could always count on to be there and to pick you up when you were down? Someone you loved so much you would of died for...had you had the chance or needed to? That one face you could pick out of every other face on the busy street we call life...the one who stopped when everyone else just walked on by. The one person whos arms always felt like home...The one who would of given the world to you, even if the world was theirs. The one you spent countless moments with doing every crazy thing you could think of...and hours just watching the clouds. A guardian angel.

My guardian angel Jessica Paige Barton, died on July 11, of this year. At thirteen, what teenager should have to worry about where, or rather if she will be here tomorrow...or next week...or in a year. Wonder whether she'll ever get married, or have children, or have the chance to go to college...no one. I wonder, how could someone so, perfect, so full of life be gone forever. Theres so many things i wish i could of said, could of done. Now i can never hold her hands while she learns how to roller-blade backwards again...never wipe the tears from her cheeks after another heart-wrenching movie...ill never be able to hold her hand and tell her that she is my sister and my best friend. I cant ever see her smile again, except when i close my eyes. we cant live next to eachother married to twin brothers with identical houses and perfect smiling children...like we dreamed of. She'll never get her second real kiss. I was lucky enough to witness her first. The rosey color of her cheeks as the winter cold kissed them will never touch them again. She lives only now in my heart, and memory. Thats where she'll stay forever.

Jess, I love you. I wish I could just see you one more time...hold you in my arms, if only for a second. I promise though my sweet Jessie...we will be together someday, and on that day everything will be alright. We will never be seperated again. I give you my word, my heart, and all my love. I miss you.
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He Only Takes The Best
God saw she was getting tired
And cure was not to be
So he wrapped his arms around her and whispered
"Come With Me"

With tear filled eyes
We watched her suffer and fade away
Although we loved her deeply
We could not make her stay

A golden heart stopped beating
Hard-working hands put to rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best