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	Kayla Kerrigans Logs and personal writeings. Kimi wa mou yume no tsuzuki todoku hazu mo nai koto da to wakatteiru Anti-Nostalgic Gravitation In liveing memory of Jan gray mother of three children and 6 chikens

	ok.. trying this again.. the past 72 houres give or take.


ok so... sunday ... i went to sleep saturday night exhausted and glad that i had talked to Adele missing kat the usual. well in the morning i wooke up and and neglecting my shower because at the timei really didnt need it. i went to go pick up kimmy for the last time for a few months and got to drive my new car the lill gremlin it is. well the lill thing kinda broke down at a red light but it started right back up when i turnned the key again. the problem iwth the car is that there is a flat spot on the carborator that at a certan point be tween hot and cold will catch and just stop the moter. then you just have to re start it ... ill learn my way around it. anyway. we got to church did our thing there you know the god praiseing and all that. because God is to be worshiped i really do mean that.. if he was smallenought for me to understand him hed not be biggenought to worship.. anyway... on ward we went i droped kimmy at her house then went home and change carse because my dad wanted to put in a sterios system and im all happy witth that now. after that i drove to KC's house to play Star craft with chris and evan ( her brothers) after afew houres of game time when i was talking to adele rather than actualy playing. they had to leave for a wedding thing so kc was still there i hung out and picked on her while we caught up on stuff cause wed not been talking much... sence.. yeah anyway.. we talked and crap then she left and i went home to pick up some stuff then drove to kimmys for a barbie q thing that was for kimmy leaveing us.. when you think about it what kind of a message does that send to her? " YAY YOUR LEAVEING" well honestly it was all in good heart and love. were alll going to miss her.. shes alredy left at like six this morning. so yeah.. here i am and its cold and im wet at the moment... back on the relevent tangent. we finished that and went to kimmys house to hang out. well while ther with jess and kimmy and kc and alice and janel and chelsea yeah thats it... we hugn out and kimmy wanted to watch the incedibles but Kc didn wana however kimmy was ok with us getting Eddie Izzard and watching that sso jess and i booked it to her house in her car.. apparently its NOT legal for her to drive me but who gives a ******** im 18 its my choice to lay my life in the hands of a 17 year old driver.. anyway... we got to her house and she realized shed forgoten her jacket that hid the shirt she was wareing that was er... revealing at the least and her parents couldent know that she had me in the car so she had me sit in the back and strip my shirt off. so ... she drove to her house and parked in the driveway... and i lay on my back... in my bra... thining.."what happens if jessicas parents ask why she has my shirt?.... " and "what if they dont want her to go back to kimmys... how the hell am i getting out of that hu? " well non of that happend and jess had multipul back up plans i wunder with that girl whats really truth and wats not. well on the way back Janel called and told us to get candy so we hit albertsons while we were there she brought up Kat. She could tell i was missing her and she told me that Janel had seen Kat on line nearly 24/7 for all the time i was gone.. and then she dissapeard when i got back.. im sure you see how thats distressing so ive been rather upset for a while but masking it as well as i can.. besides it might all be a big misunderstanding.. kat promised me shed never hurt me.. and thats something i trust. anyway... ijust need to see her.. its been a long time and i miss her... * looks ratehr sad* ... anyway.. i was all down frm then on but i cant talk to anyone but jess and Adele about it. so on the way back jessica tryed her hardest not to play sapy music cause she could tell i wasnt willing to cry or anything and we drove on our way back home. well she saw this dude... with nice music and sterio system and she started flirting from the driver seet. at this point i was rather exasperated and she got on the free way findeng herslelf going the wrong way . i was to emotionaly disturbed to notice and after a lovely conversation with the man at about 75 miles per houre we got of the free way and found our way home. once back i hung out a while longer and then went home weere i talked to Adele about all this then she called my house and we talked for on hell a long time. it was i belive 103 minuets before her phone card ran out.. it was really fun and i like to talk to her nods was a lill afraide it would be one of those convesations you ahve where you sit in silence and waste phone minuets... so from the time she called to th time it ended i went on line after ward and we talked More.. yep yep yep were crazy anyway. ^_^ . i went to sleep and woke up the next day feeling sick and just kinda ignored it to the end of the day where i went diretly to sleep and slept for as LONG as i caould then got up and got caugh drops. then chilled on line with adele some more. nothing much happend really though i did lend my english book to a woman named Kelly who didnt have one and needed a book to make copies off of so i hope i get that back ... i couldent make some one with a 3 or 4 year old child spend unnessicary money on a book i hope it helps her in the long run.... this brings us to today... i woke up relly early feeling sicker than before and took some day quill knock off stuff called day time and then went to school sat in my car and did some work. then went to math class and then to swim Kelly wasnt where she said shed be. anyway.. i wnt to swim and we swam more than i was up for really ... now i feel all weak.. im makeing frinds there though wich ididnt think i coudl really do. when we finished i felt really sick... and went to the bathroom where i threw up everything id eaten ... wich was NOTHING.. it was all just plaine acid and it hurt and still does... anyway... that whineing compleated im siting here hopeing to talk to some one soon and feeling all lonely well there you have it... thats my day and or week or well 72 houres kinda a lot more than i rememerd. "why tell me why what i want is another chance to show you that i love you that i need you cause i want you by my side.!" WHY- DHT "im alone and i dont knwo what to do with my feelings cause im still not over you and im crying from the day you walked away and i miss you i miss you!" I miss you - DHT "its is better to remainsilent and be thought a fool than to speak and remove all doubt. " Abraham Lincon Verin · Tue Aug 23, 2005 @ 09:08pm · 2 Comments


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	O.O wow what a 72 hours that was!! and yay! ^_^ it was really fun talking to you... >.> do you notice we like type every single friggen chance we get it seems like .... o.o .... >.> or at least we try once a day! Offline Adee · Community Member · Wed Aug 24, 2005 @ 01:41pm


	I'd say its about every firggen time we can.. nods woulden't trade that for the world that i would not. biggrin Offline Verin · Community Member · Wed Aug 24, 2005 @ 06:17pm

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