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I am one of the biggest f**king moronically simplistic idiots of all time! i miss a sentence over the phone and my relationships go to pot! why, because my brain isn't even functioning, i am a brainless moron, who is a meager victim of life, death would be a blessing! a well accepted blessing.!

i need to get mugged and have the s**t beat outta' me one day! just because i deserve it, my friends and family would be all, "now, now, you are just upset. you really don't want that to happen to you."
BULLS**T!!! I need to be gutted like a damned fish, and survive the whole ordeal! why? why would i need this? what would i get out of it? a hell of a lot i say! i have killed animals, destroyed humans mentally (thats ok actually), and i have let my emotions take hold of me. that last one is the straw that busts the f**king caravan of camels back!! i wish to lack the emotions anger, jealousy, want, and love. without love the world would be a better place, no excuses to make more of the retched population of earth.
i know that i will probably adopt a kid at this rate, and grow old knowing that i managed to put one on the road of life with a chainsaw in hand........
















my friends aren't my friends, they are my friends.
my parents aren't my parents, they are my parents.
my house isn't my house, it's my house.



that's just a sample of what goes on in my mind, one big monologue of pointless rapture from my internal higher deity.
NO, i did not just call myself god.







i love these journals, no one ever reads them, i can vent and no one knows. no one cares! and thats good because if they did something would be wrong!


oh, there might actually be someone who reads this.........good for you, get something out of it, life is the b***h slap of god and we all need it!
you live to reproduce then die, no if's / ands / or buts.
die with it, okay!






i want to die at sea......like that will ever happen.