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Nobody understands me! Ok, somebody does, but not anyone that could help me.
Somebody just stole my place in the world. She took my seat right when I was about to sit down on it. She pushed herself in between me and that chair and is trying to get me lie on my back so that she can say she won. She took the only thing I was good at. She stole the only one I liked. She thinks too much of herself. I realized I am nothing compared to all of you, noble people, that have already fought to get themselves a seat. I am alone, floating nowhere. I like to sit at home, play gaia, read a romantic book, dream about imaginery characters, draw wander around.. lol. I'm such a huge LAWLZ... lol Look? See? I'll just laugh at myself. So rediculous I am. I'll try my best to get people listen to what I'm saying, but how would anyone care to listen to my terrible, noob accent. The only way I could ever tell them what I'm thinking is writing. Then they all keep telling me to speak and not write notes. I can't help what I am. I am not like them. I am like me, and my speaking is limited. I have no intention to make a fool out of myself by speaking English. It sounds simply very ugly. I will only ever speak loudly and speak and be smart in Finnish. If I lose my right hand one day, only will about 5 million people ever be able to know what I am saying, and the rest of the world shall fuch off. I won't speak to them. They don't deserve to hear anything. They don't even want to. Think whatever on earth you like, the reader of mine (another me it shall be), but I know myself I am not stupid, and one day I will get a lot of people listen to me, like all of us will at least once in our lives, get somebody listen, I believe. I mean... I am stupid. Very, very stupid. I cannot do maths. Even if I try. It just doesn't make any sense. Why would you call a random set of numbers inside brackets a matrix? Why would you need to make one? Why would you not put up information in a clearer way? Why would you time two matrices together? Or divide them? Or add them? I don't understand. It is so pointless, so pointless, all in vain. I don't care anymore. I am not taking mathematics in Finland, in that blessed school (How the HELL are you supposed to say that? I cannot say ...sdskh...! English sucks a**! No, it doesn't! It's worse than that! No words to show my anger! No, not anger! It's worse than that! Worse!). I will be taking subjects that have a point. Subjects like thinking skills, literature, languages, history, philosophy, art, physics etc, etc... Not mathematics. Subjects again. Ah, reminds me of my Dutch oral. That sucked a** too. I talked, and then my brain went blank. He wouldn't let me think about it. It started asking questions and when I told him to ******** stop it and give me a zero he wouldn't do it. He would just have to embarrass me, and in the end he tortured me by playing the freakin' tape, and I told him I didn't want to hear my quiet, mouse-voice go "dank u...". Aargh! I want to strangle someone. I really, really want to! I am already confused enough. The teachers should ******** leave me alone! Everyone should leave me alone. That idiot, who stole my life, those friends, who do not understand me when I am being sarcastic which makes me seem like a psycho and that guy, who just talks about Naruto and computer games and his guitar lessons. I am NOT interested! God dammit! Shut the ******** up you pitiful world! You've got nothing to give here. I wanna get out. Somewhere where people are similar to me. As much as I love them here, I do not understand them, and they do not understand me.
Omg, all this s**t I had to write together, not leaving any paragraphs. surprised It's late.
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